Bosan, Bengang, Boo!

Im bored to death, the best I can say now.

Ok, as promised you guys the sad story I want to tell you about.
One fine evening, I got back from work and saw a car in front of my house.
My housemate's bf's car.
As I passed by the car, there was a voice calling my name and urged me:
"Z, kau bawak N keluar dari kereta aku".

Ok, she was begging for him not to leave her.
She cried like hell, pulled the guy's shirt.
The guy pulled himself away with that look. You know, muka orang tak suka dah.

I was watching and trying to get her out of the car. But she refused to follow me.
I asked her to get into the house as the neighbours are watching the drama.

For about 15 minutes, the guy got out of the car and went to the road side.
She followed and aku cam dah malas nak layan sebab aku penat balik dari kerja tak kuasa nak layan drama bunguk camtu. Malu duh, jiran tengok OK.

15 minutes later, the guy brought her back.
In front of my house and he warned her please get into the house before the brother is coming.
So she got in.
Then the guy's brother came, pulled away the guy while spitting at our halaman rumah, baling tin minuman yg dia nak buang.
Wth man, even if kau marah perempuan tu (well, the brother tak suka my housemate ni).
Janganlah hina macam tu.
Shit gila, kurang ajar.
But I didnt give a damn at that moment sebab aku fikir orang tengah marah usah simbah minyak.

Drama ended, aku masuk rumah.

Dah la ok, move je lah.
Orang dah takmau.

Banyak lagi yang sudi, tu pun kalau kamu nak cuba.

Good luck.
Say no to dramas.

Bye.

Btw, tengah tunggu Air Asia yang sengal ni call me back.
You better be good, red mini skirt.

Thanks.

Grown Up, Ah

Kau dah besar or berumur, should act like one.
Jangan jadi bodoh ok, beg sana sini.
Orang dah tak nak sudah lah.

Move on lah.

Outspoken, September 2009.

People, tadi aku masak mee rebus and ajak friends to come over.
We makan-makan and tiba-tiba keluar cerita lama, tahun lepas.
Masa tu aku baru report duty ke Bintulu. It was in September 2009.
One friend from HR department, bersuara dan pandang aku.
"Aku ingat lagi kau masa sesi We Care We Share. Kau outspoken duh.".

I was like..err..am I?
Haha.
Sometimes aku tak perasan pun how people describe me.

Nanti aku cerita satu cerita sedih di petang hari.
I wish I didn't witness it.
Sigh, after all..It's just another phase of life..
Goodnyte!

Wasted My Years..

Something in the past came up, all of sudden.
Surprised by the news, I stayed calm.
But somehow it made me think of how I wasted my years with uncertain things, with worrying things, with jumbled up things around me.
How it made me feel uneasy most of the time and miserable.
Cried almost every night, how stupid.

Harsh but true.

To know the news now, people and I would say "c'mon, it's in the past."
But it suddenly lingers when you hear it after almost a year of silence.

A lie will always be a lie I guess.

Please, let yourself away from me or anyone I love.

12 Years..

It has been 12 years and I'm still far away from people back home.
Down..down..down..:(


I was crying ..then he came..went online.

I love you darling, R.

Putera Katak Tengah Malam

Helo people, laparnya.
:(
Tadi I balik awal, I mean balik memang ON TIME. 4.30pm sharp depan gate. Haha.
I was kinda energyless sebab perut meragam since the noon.
I drove macam orang mengantuk, lemah. Almost accident tadi. Alhamdulillah masih alive:(...

So yeah, last night ada seekor katak masuk bilik via my window.
It was 12am midnite. Gila tau, I scream and nangis because the frog got into my closet.
I texted Encik Sayang and he thought it was funny and laughed.
I merajuk dengan kadar yang kecil sebab kecuakan tengok katak lagi dasyat you!.
At about 1am, katak berjaya dikeluarkan after a few jumps :P.

Sigh, katak oh katak. Ada kawan suggest I kiss katak tuh, mana tau tetibe jelma jadi Prince yang handsome. HAHA.

Now Encik Sayang travel again, tinggal I sorang-sorang kat fb, skype and YM ni.
Aih, sunyi nya bila dia takda.
Today when I told my friends about katak tuh, they laughed like hell and then I realised how funny it was.
Yer la sayang, memang funny pun. Tapi bila sayang gelak bila Za cuak camtuh, memang lah belum jadi funny. Haha.
Oklah, esok nak pergi jumpa dentist and shopping gila-gila beli barang-barang keperluan. (^_^)

Are You Ready?

Are you ready babeh?
Haha, gile ape intro cmtuh.
What lah.
Oh ya, I just finished watching Gossip Girl Season 3. Never thought watching it is gona be a real wrench, sungguh tak logic but apparently it was.
Sigh, drama drama.

Eyh, it's not what I'm going to talk about. Haha, macam biasa lah I repek kerepek before going to the real entry.

Just now Encik Sayang asked me
"Sayang dah ready nak kahwin?"

Hurm *muka fikir panjang*.
It's not that I'm in doubt or having a second thought to be his wife but I personally think that neither "Yes, I'm ready" nor "Im not ready" answer are fair enough.

Why I said that? Because I think I don't know if I'm truly ready until I'm in it.

Kalau I memang nak kahwin, I have the intention, I act my talk and intention, InsyaAllah it will come my way, come our way.
Give me chance to prove I can be a good wife, let's learn each other and live together, face everything together when we're married.
Ok yang? That's my answer.
I'm not perfect kan dear, I malas lipat baju. That's for sure but as long as Encik Sayang will teman I lipat baju, I definitely akan bersemangat melipat baju:P.

haha, pening tak? :p

Nak tidur, bye!

My Very Own

I can live my own life, like I used to do.

9 Months and The Days Go On..:)

Alhamdulillah, its already 9 months pregnancy since we last..last..had 'something' for each other. hehe.
People, its been a while since I blabbed about my dull daily lives.
Boring sket hidupku lately, sungguh-sungguh busy ok since I was placed at the new department.
In this new department, Im not doing any engineering/technical jobs. It's all about buying/procurement. I jadi buyer lah for my company.
I will handle and process the PR (Purchase Requisition) sampai lah I dapat produce PO (Purchase Order).
Basically kerja baru I ni agak enjoyable.
I can dress up to go to work, wearing heels, baju-baju cantik.
Everyday my office hour memang FULLY OCCUPIED from 8 to 5pm.
Kena email orang sana-sini, deal with suppliers and end users (the engineers).
Layan kerenah orang la..

Kerja guna komputer je banyak, writing up documents and I think I memang enjoy kerja non technical nih.
Tak perlu berpanasan ke plant atau pakai baju kuning coverall tuh.

Tapi itulah, I jadi busy sket, tapi I puas hati dengan kerja I. Fuh!

Why am I attached to this department?
It's just a temporary attachment for 6 months.
Thats why I said, kalau I perform di department baru ni, I ingat I nak mintak tukar untuk permanently kerja di department ni.
Makin lama makin tak sesuai dengan jiwa saya untuk jadi engineer.
Hurm..it's a long story peeps..
I can commit to my engineering job but my heart is not there. Sigh..I need my boss to talk about this.

Oklah people, I nak mandi untuk malam.
Btw, my weekend was superb as I invited over a few friends (nearly 10 people) to come over to my new house.
I made bihun sup and they liked it! Yeah yeah! Hehe.
Terasa macam tinggal di UK saja, masak and ajak friends to come over.:)

Macam mini open house saje.
Orang cakap, tetamu tu kan rezeki?
:)

Ok2, perlu mandi malam.
Bye bye people!

Him Eps 2

17. Sense of intellectual. intelek ini penting, termasuklah bila kau menegur aku. tegurlah aku dengan intelek, bukan hanya ikut hati. dalam kata lain, teguran berhikmah. sekian.
~So far saya ok jer dengan cara die menegur saya.:)

18. Tahu isu semasa, boleh berdiskusi dan boleh dibawa berbincang. at least we have something to talk about other than being lovey-dovey at all times without knowing what's going on. ada kaitan dengan isu intelek, aku mahu pasangan yang intelek.
~Isu semasa, masalah negara, masalah masyarakat. Semua kami boleh dicuss together. :D

19. Seorang yang gentleman, buat aku rasa selamat. contohnya bila aku ada masalah, kau rela mendengar dan kalau boleh ada nasihat berguna. bagusnya.
~:)

20. Terima aku seadanya, tahu handle aku di kala aku tidak stabil emosinya setiap bulan dan sabar menempuh saat sukar itu (atau kadang-kadang aku tiba-tiba emosi. siapa tahu kan hehe.) if you can stand me at my worst, you deserve me at my best. yes you are ;)
~Setakat ni Encik Sayang boleh sabar dengan kerenah ku dan cuba memahami kenapa ada PMS:P

21. Someone who leads the relationship. i dont want to be the man in a relationship. since i was small, i will be easily attracted to men with good leadership skills. hence, be the man.
~no comment ya, senyum ja :)

22. Someone with good computer skills will obtain extra points here. hehe. why i need this? because i like gadgets, i like computers, i like technologies. bila laptop aku rosak hari tu, baru tahu pentingnya lelaki yang tahu komputer.
~I need to live with him, baru tahu.

23. Jika kita berdebat, sila jangan kalah sebelum waktu. sila debat dengan hujah bernas, sekian.
~evidence memang penting:P. Muka saya tak puas hati pun dia dah boleh read:)

24. If you want me to be an adult please treat me like one.
~agree..

25. Tidak cepat putus asa. ini sungguh penting, aku tak mahu losers.
~Lelaki yg cepat give up tidak digemari..

26. Seseorang yang membela aku, pertahankan aku bila aku dikecam.
~So that I will feel safe..

27. Lelaki yang ada background keluarga yang baik, mempunyai hubungan yang baik dengan keluarga, anak yang taat.
~Encik Sayang memang anak yg baik:)

28. Tidak berat untuk tolong aku di rumah. situasi mudah. contohnya, jika kita baru pulang dari kerja, pasti penat dan jika kamu mahu aku masak untuk kamu, silalah tolong jaga baby kita sebentar. aku bukan mahu minta lebih, cuma kerjasama saja :)
~Yang, kalau baby kita 'tak wangi' pun mesti kena jaga ya..:P. haha

29. Oh lagi, kau terima aku dan keluarga. aku ada 10 beradik tahu, sila lah tahu itu. kalau kau tak suka keluarga besar, aku bukanlah perempuan itu OK. oh yer, kau tahu kan yang aku ini tinggal di Perak, aku juga bukan belajar di Sri Aman, dahulu aku belajar di Kedah lah.
~Some people tak rasa aku dari Perak. naper tah..

Him Eps 1

Kira-kira 2 bulan before I knew Encik Sayang, I made a list remember? List ciri-ciri lelaki idaman saya..
Tiba-tiba hari ini saya tergerak hati untuk baca balik list tu..Check these out..

1. Kau memang lelaki tulen, itu pasti.
~InsyaAllah, Encik Sayang itu lelaki tulen. Hehe. Kan yang?

2. Kau single.
~Before I kenal dia, I ingat dia taken tau. But..Alhamdulillah single. Hehe:)

3. You can guide me to the right path or at least have the potential and willingness to be better.( THIS IS VITAL). And yes, if i say something good dengan tujuan nak menegur, kamu mesti willing untuk dengar:)
~InsyaAllah, dia mampu..kan yang?

4. You are affordable in terms of money, time, efforts. it'd be better if you own a car, but hey i wouldn't mind using public transport (sometimes).
~Tapi kan aby, since you're very good at driving, I malas lah naik public transport dah..lalalala..~

5. Someone yang pembersih, tahu bila untuk kenakan bau yang menyenangkan. Sedikit unsur Metroseksual adalah bagus.
~Ehem..ehem...:)

6. Respect me and treat me as a WOMAN, not ONLY a human.
~So far so good dear..

7. Knows how to get along with my family, friends. respect them too. one of the reasons of rejection is when my family say NO to you.
~So far so good with my family. My youngest sister suka ja bila Encik Sayang nak datang rumah..:)

8. Knows how to joke. i like someone with sense of humor. excuse me, no lawak bodoh please.
~Dia suka mengusik orang..Buat saya ketawa tapi malu-malu :P

9. Willing to sacrifice for me, or at least offer me your help, it will show your concern ok?
~Yup..yup..Encik Sayang memang suka menolong orang tau..Bulan puasa hari tu he offered to drive me to Alor Setar untuk settle kan tiket flight saya..Journey yang might take 3 hours..Thanks yang..:)

10. Smart thinking. i love men with brains. tak semestinya 1st class degree every semester, but THE WAY YOU THINK and MAKE UP YOUR MIND really matter to me. from that i would know whether you are smart. i also love to hear your evidences. jangan salah sangka, kalau kau pemalas belajar serta akademik tidak bagus pun aku tak mahu.
~He's smart..:)

11. A good listener. this is important especially when we discuss a certain matter. i will listen to you and vice versa. it's a bonus if you can easily read my mind and just get what im saying so that i don't need to elaborate more on that. *applause*
~Memang good listener, he will listen to my stories. Problems apatah lagi..:). Kalau saya tak puas hati dengan jawapannyer, he can read my face. haha:P

12. You DO SPORTS. i want a healthy man, not a bookworm. hey, at least futsal.
~Fuh, pernah di offer untuk ke Sekolah Sukan Bukit Jalil ni..kan yang?

13. Physically, i want someone taller than me (worry not, im just 160cm), 'sharp' face (if you know what i mean), tak perlu kacak macam Johnny Depp, tetapi sedap mata memandang sudah:). jika kau kacak serta perasan memang turn me off, maaf.
~Yeye..he's taller than me..hehe

14. Tidak berkira in terms of money.
~Sepanjang I kenal die, die tak berkira orangnya..

15. Self confidence. a man with a self confidence is way more preferred.
~Masa mula-mula jumpa dia, faktor ini yg buat saya tertarik kepadanya..Hurmm..:)

16. Matang, tahu membuat keputusan bijak.
~Although he is just 22, tapi ada juga matangnya..:)

Baru 16, more characteristics to come..tunggu....:)

Later! :)

Mood, Where Are You?

Empty.
It's all I feel.
Im not mad, no anger. No furious too.
Mood takde. Im not sad.
Just, takde perasaan nak buat apa-apa.

Encik sayang is leaving for Tanta tonight.
Selalunya sayang travel, take care ya.

Btw, my job is treating me great. Satisfaction.
People, kalau aku tak mahu jadi engineer ok tak?
I want to do something else.

I'm still thinking.

Maybe nak tukar department.

Maybe.
Allah, I seek guidance. Please..:(

Washing Machine, Behave!

Heh, sound nonsense aite to urge a washing machine to behave.
I waited nearly an hour just to see how the machine operates CORRECTLY.

Aih..it's 1am now, Im still awake.
Apa lah machine ni, tak user friendly langsung!

Btw, it's not washing machine I want to talk about.
It's about what I said to a friend without thinking about another person's side-his boyfriend.
She told me she doesnt love the boyfriend, not entirely.

She claimed that the boyfriend is not rich and good looking enough to be admired.

I was speechless, she's my friend so I would just listen before I drop any comments.

She seemed unhappy with the relationship, not that the guy treats her bad.
In fact, the guy treats her superb! She told me that.
Apparently she's having this "Weekdays Scandal" with another guy-her colleague.
They go out almost everyday right after office hours.
I told her, dont play with fire-kelak membakar diri.

Even if she doesnt like the boyfriend, not satisfied enough with him..She could've just left him years ago.
Kesian, kesian kat boyfriend dia because I know him. A college mate of mine.

Hurmm...I cant say more because I really feel guilty after saying this-"It's your life, decide what you think best for you. If you think he's not the one, make a move, leave him. "

Damn, what did I say huh? Arghh..
Maybe aku tak patut cakap macam tu..Entah.
What a friend la aku ni..haishh..~~ Bad bad..

Tapi bila aku dok sorang-sorang tadi tunggu washing machine yg tak berapa difahami tu, aku mula fikir things I said to her this morning.
Then after regretting what I did, I texted her.

"Babe, if you really love him..please dont leave him.."

No reply, she was already in bed I guess.

The point here is:

1. Aku kasihan dengan boyfriend dia, maybe he deserves a better girl, yang lebih sesuai dengan dia. Not to say that kawan aku tu jahat, tapi kadang-kadang kesian. Her needs is beyond the guy's ability. Entah lah aku kesian kat siapa sebenarnya. Kawan aku tak happy, boyfriend dia kena betray secretly. Kalau mereka bawa haluan masing-masing, mungkin lebih bagus.
2. Kadang-kadang aku rasa mereka tak sesuai, tak sanggup dah dengar kawan aku tu komplen si lelaki tu tak kaya, perlu tanggung family lagi..Lelaki tu kampung..etc..Perit duh! Aku pernah marah kat kawan aku, "kalau tak suka why nak holding on? Break saja lah"
3. Aku tak tahu, macam tersepit. Aku confused. What else should I say to her, my friend. :(

Aku ada satu solution, kalau betul kawan aku memang nak break up, please leave him peacefully and appropriately. Dont be a bit**, friend.
Jangan kasi false hope, aku cukup tak suka.

Lagi satu benda perit kawan aku bagitahu, although dia dah plan nak kawen next year dengan lelaki tu, tapi dia akan kawen dengan siapa saja yang dia rasa dia suka tahun ni, asalkan dia kawen.

Itu aku dah tak tahu nak cakap apa lah.
Dah la, nak tido. Esok tidur kat office habes lah. Bueks.

**Sayang, rindu sangat la..Sayang take care ok, I really heart you..nyte**

Siapa Tahu?

I have a Question:

"where to find make up artist yg provide natural look, no cakey or clown look with good and reliable brand? in NORTHEN part of Malaysia..bagi contact no please..thanks! :) "

I Need Time:)

Heylo all!
I was busy, super super punyer.
Been moving out from the old house, now I got a new room yang lebih kecil but soooo nice because it's painted blue.

Later I'll tell you more ok?
Now I deserve enough rest..:(

Eyh, rindu Encik Sayang la.
We both busy now, but still keep touch as frequent as we can la.
hehe.

Ok, buhbye!

Why (?)

You're there, I'm here. I'm going to bed, you're going to class. I rise and shine, you're saying goodnyte. We're gona have this for months..and it aint funny..

I need your attention, I need you to listen to all of my ramblings.
I know you'd do that.
But when have the time constraint, I bet I can have all that.

When Im sulking and you said "I have to go, dont have much time. I got class".

I can't stop you from leaving.

Tonight, I feel there's a hole inside my heart.

It's big.
It shows that I'm sad and I need you to accompany me.

Goodnyte.

Dumped Shit

No, I was not cursing when you refer to the title.

I'm under stress, it's about work.
My job is treating me pretty not-so-well.

It feels like cleaning up the dumped shit by others.

But I really hope I'll be strong and will be able to prove to them I can do it!
Sound skema kan? But I mean it peeps.
When the stress is hitting and striking, all I know is to work and work sincerely.
Walau apa pun orang buat kat kita, whatever task is given to us, as long as kita ikhlas, InsyaAllah hati tenang dan sabar itu akan datang dengan mudah..

I seek strength..
Tadi pakai heels and baju kurung ke office.
Lepas ni tak pakai dah, no second attempt please.

I'd rather wear long sleeve shirt saja.

Adios, mahu beradu.
Encik Sayang is travelling to Alexandria (Iskandariah).
Sayang cepat pulang ok, safe journey ya..:) *heart*
Goodnyte lovely girls..:)

Yang, ada present for you..Nah..:) Edited pic of yours..