I Hate Everything About You

"Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet..
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything all about me
Why do you love me..
"


I just got back from London. 3 tiring days. Last night i was knackered. Tidur tahap boleh pengsan selama 80 jam. ish. ape ni awal-awal dah mengarut. So yeah, UKEC Careers Fair went fairly dull. It was not as 'interesting' as last year's. Interview for the Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam (SPA-Government) went well. But wait, kalau kamu baca blog ini and nak 'kondem' kerja dengan kerajaan, sila klik icon 'x' di window blog ini. If nak 'kondem' kerja dengan government tapi sendiri datang UK pun orang sponsor, sila fikir lapan kali before look down ok? Get it? Agagaga jangan lah terasa kalau kamu tak buat ;p
So what's with the interview with SPA? Ada perkara lucu berlaku semasa interview berlangsung. Basically ada 2 interviewers. Aku rasa macam biasalah, macam interview-interview lain, kita akan bercakap dengan gaya-gaya yakin (gaya sahaja ya. haha). Tapi bila aku perhati, kedua-dua Dato' (interviewers) itu agak sempoi, kami akhirnya jadikan sesi interview itu sebagai sesi borak-borak juga.
They asked me why SPA?
-gulp*paused*gasped for a few seconds. then i went bla.bla..bla.bla..

Actually for the SPA I applied for Engineer positions (tipikal kan?). Apart from that I applied for 'Pegawai Tadbir & Diplomatik-PTD'. Oh ya, BTW..menjadi PTD itu bukan sahaja jadi Duta, banyak lagi PTD buat ya..sila research sikit.
Bila kedua interviewers itu tengok CV aku dan application form aku, mereka tanya lagi:
"Why applied for PTD? Dont u think it's gona be a waste for not using your engineering qualification?"-oh yeah people, this is my favourite Question. I gave my own reasons..bla..bla..and i think they got what i meant. hehe

lagi..they said since I'm flexible and wouldn't mind if I don't work in engineering or technical field, they recommended me to be..(This is the I-think-it-was-funny part) they recommended me to be..a BPR Officer!!!
Mari ulang, Badan Pencegah Rasuah Officer tau! ahaha..i told them; This is something never crossed my mind! ahahaha..I laughed sikit la mase tu tapi mesti lah kene control gelak kan, maklumlah interview session..agagaga ;p. I asked again; Why BPR Officer? Not PTD as applied?
They said because I have the qualities needed. They saw things in me; Firm, Communication skill and Bravery. Plus, in order to be a PTD, tak perlulah ada qualification seperti itu. Any degrees will do.
Then..dengan kurang yakinnya aku tanya lagi (banyaknya aku tanya, sapa interview sapa ni?)
"Can a woman handle it? I mean the job?"
They said yes, for example the Perak's BPR Director for the 07/08 session also a woman. Yes, I agree since baru je browse through the website ;)
Then last-last I accepted the recommendation. Accept ja dulu kan? kan? We'll see how ok.

Sebenarnya lama juga SPA interview tu, aku dah nak bangun dari kerusi dan angkat handbag tapi tetap duduk balik sebab masih ada soalan diaju. agagaga gelak dalam hati saja lah;p.

OK, itu cerita careers fair. Banyak lagi cerita mahu tulis tapi tak apa, simpan dalam jantung sudahlah. Kepada kawan-kawan yang sudah dapat conditional offer letter, congrats okeh?

Actually kan, bila orang tanya kerja yang macam mana yang kamu mahu? Nak je aku jawap; saya nak kerja yang boleh dress up dan lepak-lepak sikit, cukup masa pegi shopping. agagaga jangan jawap mcm ni ya, pasti kene reject ahahaha..itu hanya angan-angan saja ;) Life aint a bed of roses kan?

oh ya, dari proses mencari kerja ini aku belajar one thing lah; kalau kamu pergi interview dan tak dapat kerja tu, jangan terus rasa sebab diri tu tak hebat, tak bagus, etc. Kamu perasan tak, selain kelayakan akademik, kadang-kadang antara sebab kita tak dapat kerja tu kerana; Profil diri kita. Ya, faham kan kalau orang kata diri kita ini tak sesuai atau sepadan dengan profil company tersebut? Sebab itulah sesetengah or most companies mahu kita jawap soalan berkaitan diri kita, mahu kenal siapa kita. Itu sebablah penting menjadi diri kita sebenar ketika interview. Kerana selain academic qualification, mereka juga lihat profil diri kita. Ini kerana, mereka ingin cari pekerja yang boleh jadi representative company mereka. Get it? Get it?

fuh fuh aku sudah penat gila sebenarnya, baru balik london terus update blog. oh yeah, aku baru sampai Sheffield, periksa emel terus ada emel dari satu company S, panggil interview selasa ini. Fine.

Bila aku dah balik Sheffield baru nak panggil yeak..hehe. Its ok, i'll ring them. The point is; I DEFINITELY NEED an IPHONE!!!!!! agagagaga ;p so that i can check mails di mana saja, bila-bila masa;) tapi duit adakah? syeesshhhh

"remember when i said i will keep the distance when im awake and will get close to you when im 'asleep'? i hope im asleep for..ever but i chose to be awake. we are different."

**love me you'll get hurt, hate me you'll be free.**

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5) Jangan lupa melawat blog kawan anda dan meninggalkan komen yang menyatakan mereka telah ditag.

2) Pemberi Award
Cik chika. Dia ialah rakan adik saya, Cenad. Dia budak pandai serta comel dan kelakar. Dulu MRSM Langkawi, kan Chika? First time I met her, dapat tahu dia funny, slumber type and suka makan. Tak apa Chika, I suka orang yang suka makan-makan ni. ;p Saya juga suka baca blog beliau. Kiranya antara blog favourite saya lah. hehe. Now chika is in Melbourne. All the best for cik chika! (Skema nya ucapan)

3) fakta/hobi saya

1. Saya tak suka benda-benda slow, lembap dan terkedek-kedek. Contoh nya, komputer lambat, jalan lambat, cakap pun lambat. Sungguh rimas. Oh ya, sebabnya saya ni cakap dengan laju juga kadang-kadang. ahaha..
2. Kadang-kadang saya rasa saya ni lebih tua dari usia sendiri. Contohnya, masa kecil (darjah 1), saya lebih senang berkawan dengan budak darjah 5. Why? Sebab mereka lebih matang, easy going dan rata-rata lebih banyak pengalaman bessss. ehehehe. Another thing is masa sekolah rendah, saya lebih suka baca buku untuk sukatan pelajaran sekolah menengah. Buku sejarah misalnya. gilak lahh aku..ahahaha..
3. Bila saya sakit perut mahu ke tandas dan mahu kurangkan efek sakit perut itu, saya akan tenangkan diri dan akan membayangkan taman-taman bunga yang indah..nanti kuranglah sakit perut tu. agagaga..menjadi tau petua tuh ;p
4. Semasa sekolah rendah, saya paling benci tulis karangan. Bila exam BM penulisan ja, saya pasti ada kupu-kupu dalam perut. Tapi last-last saya akan skor juga paper penulisan. Saya ingat lagi, bila habis darjah 6, cikgu Mashitah mahu beli semua karangan-karangan saya dalam satu fail tuh. ehehehe..flattering sikit lah ;)
5. Antara favourite word saya: "Oh Ok.."-sambil buat muka takda perasaan.
6. Saya amat jarang tidur petang..or should i put it as tak suka tidur petang? Sebab ape? Rasa sayang lah waktu siang untuk kita tidurkan. Baik keluar jalan-jalan.
7. Saya suka menari sambil dengar lagu kuat-kuat. maklumlah, sekarang kan ada subwoofer baru. agagaga gembira ;p
8. Kalau kamu orang kesayangan, saya pasti akan selesa untuk merajuk-rajuk atau emo dengan kamu. (ahahah..) Kalau saya tidak biasa sangat dengan kamu, saya akan segan lah ;)
9. Antara cita-cita saya masa kecil adalah: Doktor, Pramugari serta Model (sila muntah jika mahu). hahaha..nenek saya lah paling rajin melayan, suka lihat saya posing sana sini di depan beliau. Tapi bila dah besar, cita-cita saya bertukar-tukar. Masa sekolah menengah pernah mahu jadi VJ (ish ish tah pepe). Bila SPM mahu jadi arkitek lah, tapi realiti nya saya lebih cenderung ke bidang engineering. :)
10. I love my family more than anything. Yes, more than anyone else. Kalau beli barang dan tak cukup duit, biarlah adik saya beli barang dia dulu, barang saya nanti-nanti pun takpa:) Even kecil-kecil salu bergaduh, tapi dah besar rindu pula..:)

ops, chika. tanak tag anyone boleh tak? ekeke..
siapa mahu buat sila kan yeaks..:)

Bila Makcik Gemok Mengajar Cara-cara Untuk Diet

to whom it may concern,
eyph..kamu mahu main Xombie kah? jom!

Final Year?

Thanks for coming Azraai

Thanks for coming too.

Final Year Studs yang hadir semalam.

Thanks for coming girls!

Weekend.
I had an annual dinner semalam. Ada la sikit some pictures. Have a look!

Academic
yeah people, i think i had a blast (oh yeah?) weekend. I deserved it since Matt, Mark and I spent 3 hours working in the lab last Friday. The challenging part was when i had to berdiri for the whole 3 hours in the lab!! penat gilos kot..skru sana..skru sini..pasang sana pasang sini..the best part was..when I used a camera for my project..DSLR tau!! haha..i used it to capture continuous pictures for my touch table to find the latency of the system. Memang super excited lah..then Maria the PhD student noticed lah apsal aku asyik tersenyum pegang camera tu (haha). Told her that I have my own DSLR too, she asked whether I ade flickr. I said ade, but not as active as my fotopages. She smiled and mintak I give her the link. hehe. Dia pun into photography but no time for it. Yeah yeah..ada gang ;p.

Interview
Im gonna have another interview this Friday 27th March. This time with Exxonmobil. Remember the phone interview I had? I have been shortlisted.
BTW, the interview will be held in Sheffield. Tak berapa familiar dengan tempat tu, so nanti kene google sikit, search where it is. Hurm agak nervous, it's been a while...last time kene interview November 2008. Almost 4 months dah. Takpe lah, I will try my best lah. Tapi kali ni tidak berapa mengharap untuk dapat..Entah lah..entah. Apa apa pun, kita cuba yang terbaik lah kan?

*** well i planned to get myself an iPhone/PDA/LG cookie/samsung tocco. tapi iPhone 3G la paling dimahukan. mahu...tapi..tapi bile pk orang-orang aku sayang tengah credit crunch, kene jimat sane sini sebab takde duit, rasa selfish plak nak bli iPhone. sighh....:( sedihnyerrr!!! :(

I Saw Your Face In a Crowded Place

"I saw an angel::Of that I'm sure.::She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

I saw your face in a crowded place::And I don't know what to do::'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,::As we walked on by.::And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,::When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you"
-James Blunt

The times we had will be memories. Still have months to share and cherish the moments.
As you said, Allah has a plan for us. Remember that Allah is the Best Planner?

Worry not, he'll be nice to me.

Hari Murung, Saya Perlu 3 Pence Untuk Oasis

credit to Apam

hari murung.
yeah yeah hari ni saya terlebih super rajin kan..kelas 2 jam yang saya mengantuk serta tersengguk-sengguk itu telah cancel hari ini. lecturer dah cakap last week tapi saya lupa! bukan apa, saya mahu tumpu perhatian betol betol dalam kelas hari ni, tak mahu tidur lagi. macam minggu lepas saya gembira kerana mampu bersemangat for the whole 2 HOURS! (tipu, lecture ni selalunyer abes 20 mins awal haha).
tapi hari ni..geramnyaaa!! pergi kelas tapi takde orang except for two guys. chinese and french (padan muka saya kan, sapa suruh lupa apa lecturer cakap minggu lepas).
oh ya, since kami 3 orang ja datang tadi, saya sempat terberkenalan dengan French guy tu. dia kan..dia kan...dia....cute!!!!! HAHAHA..
betul, kenapa saya tidak perasan dia di kelas selama ini ek..gagagaga..Nama dia Piach..i know how to pronounce it (tu pun setelah beberapa kali dia betulkan sebutan saya gagaa;p )
but the spelling pasti salah.

ok, abaikan Piach.
tak pa, saya rasa pasti rakan-rakan sekelas saya sedang ketawa baca tentang saya TERpergi kelas hari ini. Mr. A juga ketawakan saya. sedih nya tapi dia buat saya senyum :))


selepas itu, saya dahaga. pergi cafe nak beli air botol Summer Fruit by Oasis. tapi tak cukup duit. 10pence je tak cukup. (10p ialah 10sen)
dalam purse ada £3.06 sahaja.
2 keping 50p, sekeping £2 dan 6 keping 1p. saya tak boleh guna duit £2 sekeping tu, jadi tak dapat beli air.

sampai depan foyer ada orang mintak derma, kasi la sikit.

duit tinggal £1.06

pergi boots farmasi untuk beli air yang sama, tapi duit dah tak cukup. harga air ialah £1.09. saya tak cukup 3p.
last-last saya beli air apple, harga 97p. at least tekak saya tak kering dan dahaga..

tapi kempunan summer fruit oasis..

OK, emosinya entri ni. sungguh lain dari entri yang lain. gagaga.

eh sekarang dah tengah malam. murung no more. hihi..:)

Two...In One Night

2 posts in one night, boleh tahan lah babe. i just wanna share one lesson i learnt tonight.

one day...one day..when someone propose to you. why?
he said "because i love you"; memang kurang kukuh. poyo pon ader. haha

"dah sayang, kire bagus lah tu.."

memang lah sayang..tapi rasa tanggungjawap itu penting, asas kasih sayang kan? kalau setakat cakap je sayang you hari hari, tapi no responsible pun tade gune kan?

as for me, when someone propose to me because he loves me sincerely and said to me that im his responsibility..it's going to be..SOMETHING. lagi lagi pulak he shows it. he proves it.

it's going to be a YES lah kan?

well, sayang itu boleh nampak pada our actions kan? dari situ boleh rasa. deep..

so, after this tak perlu terkejut kalau kawan baik anda sendiri yang propose kamu.
kan?

dah kenal hati budi, nama pun kawan baik. pasti dia pun layan kamu A++ kan?

oh yer, aku ingat lagi Nanie penah cakap: we need someone yang really loves us, kite tak sayang die sangat pun takpe, we can nurture the feeling. perempuan kan hati lembut, boleh dipupuk right. eh, havent u heard, kalau perempuan yang beriyer-riyer sangat pada lelaki tu, nampak lagi buruk? plus, lelaki tend to be repulsive towards women yang terlalu mengejar mereka. why? because most men suka mengejar, bukan dikejar. hehe..no offense but true kan?

goodnite people..:)

Si Comel dan UGG Boots

yeah yeah today when i was on my way to see Matt, i saw this one little girl.
she has blond hair, was wearing pink skirt. age? 4 or 5 years old. she looked happy while riding a scooter. i mean the mini scooter.
i heard she sang softly. kinda worried because i thought she was alone. then i saw her dad with her little brother walking in front of us.
what's so significant about the girl?
one, she's cute and adorable. i wish i had my Nikon baby with me.
two, her face expression while singing and riding the scooter were something rare. unique. seriously lah.
three. i think she's stylo kind of girl. yela, she was wearing UGG Boots tau. haha..such a cuteness.
four. she made me think of Myra. why? because last two days i called kakak and i heard myra was singing for the whole almost-twenty-minutes. CUTE super !. with rhymes okkeyhh!.


ok enough enough.

Shoot Me 'Cause I Killed Someone

Hari ini sepatutnya hari gembira.
tapi..

Badan lemah..

Mata berpinar..

Aku pekup muka dengan kedua tanganku..
Aku tunduk..
Tekak rasa kelat..pahit..
Badan menahan getar..
pipi terasa panas..
basah..

Aku rasa kalah bila apa yang kau katakan itu boleh diterima logiknya, ada betulnya. Aku salah tapi aku terima dan setuju.
Aku rasa kagum bila aku terpaksa bersetuju dengan apa sahaja arahanmu; kerna mereka kebanyakannya betul.
Aku janji (jarang aku berjanji)..
Akan ku turut semua kemahuanmu yang benar selepas ini..
Beri aku masa ya..


*shoot me 'cause I killed someone*

"Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada Mu
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau ku kutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit Mu
Namun cinta tak kan hadir
Namun rindu takkan ber bunga

Ku cuba menghulurkan
Sebuah hadiah kepada Mu
Tapi mungkin kerana isinya
Tidak sempurna tiada seri

Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada Mu
Moga ku tahu
Syukur ku hanyalah milik Mu"

"Can You Call Me Back?"

Now is March and to think of what's lying ahead shivered me. Well classes went well, now Im pushing myself to do journals review. Erghh..nasib baik lah project aku memang interesting-Multi-Touch Table for Image Manipulation. Macam cool lah bila aku kena do research on such talk-of-the-town brands seperti Apple iPhone, Mitsubishi DiamondTouch, Perceptive Pixel by JF Han, TouchSmart PC by HP, SmartSkin by Sony, Microsoft Surface, and macam-macam brands lagi. This project macam kena dengan interest aku-Gadgets!
ok, enough about projects.

Yeah last month i've got some good news lah. Remember the interview i attended last November? My first serious job interview ever! I think I mentioned it in this post.
Yeah, aku faham lah kalau kau tak baca post tuh sebab masa tu aku privatekan blog aku. Why ha? Aku mahu privasi mungkin, yeah i needed that (sekarang pun aku masih perlu kadang-kadang). Aku dah beritau reasonnya, koreklah archive kalau rajin. haha.

Alhamdulillah after waiting for about 3 months, the company emailed me and said that i passed the interview. I got recommended, balik Malaysia perlu lapor diri pada mereka. Position apa? Location mana? Itu belum pasti, tunggu aje lah nanti mereka beritahu. Aku harap mereka tak campak aku dalam hutan atau pulau-pulau. haha. Tapi mommy sudah cakap, sementara masih muda dan single, accept je offer tu. Yeah, you're right mom. I need to be far apart from u guys lagi kan? Personally, I want to work in KL. Kalau dapat KLCC lagi heaven kan kan kan? gagaga..
Okey lah, ape-ape pun aku sangat bersyukur dengan interview result tu. Nampaknya my first shot menjadi. Tak sia-sia aku pergi London sorang-sorang, hampir pengsan kebosanan dalam en-suit room di Malaysian Hall tu. Sorang-sorang jugak aku terkebil-kebil cari hotel tempat interview tu. Nervous? Ada la jugak..who doesnt kan? Interview lah babe..tapi masa interview tu tidak lah nervous mana sebab aku rasa I was just being myself. Orang tanya, kita jawap lah kan? Cuma otak la, kene ligat berfikir sikit. Interview tu sejam setengah. Boleh tahan lah otak aku macam berpusing-pusing cari jawapan haha. Dengan handbag aku terjatuh sekejap time tuh, tapi tak apa, kita chill lah. gagaga..
Lagi apa ya mahu share dengan you guys about the interview? Aku pun sudah hampir lupa, ya lah. Dah almost 4 bulan kan. If any just ask me lah, I would give my best to share. hehe.

Another good news is from my cousin, Amalina. She was excellently got 9As in her SPM. 8A1, 1A2. good job girl! ;)

Oh yeah, apart from that, I also applied for other companies. ExxonMobil contohnya. yeah kawan-kawan as we all know, ExxonMobil akan call secara mengejut kan di awal pagi, around 9ish. Ada kawan aku dapat call masa dia tengah enak tidor di hujung minggu.

dengan suara mamai, jawap call Exxon:

"Can u call me back?"

haha. ye lah what do u expect kan awal pagi Sabtu. Nasib baik Exxon call balik.
As for me, Exxon called me awal pagi juga. Masa aku tengah seronok gumbira dengar lagu kuat-kuat. Lepas mula lah terus paksa otak berfikir nak jawap soklan-soklan tipikal seperti:
" Tell me about yourself"
"Why ExxonMobil"

haha..no comment lah.

Apa-apa pun, harap aku dapat kerja idaman, Kereta idaman, Rumah cantik di lokasi idaman yang tenang, Suami idaman serta anak-anak comel yang akan jadi sepupu kepada cotton candy aku-Myra Lisya. gagaga..impian murni kan? ;)

Sekarang perlu kerja keras untuk dapat result cemerlang, live life to the fullest. weyh, I started to miss UK lah. Nanti mesti rasa macam ni kan bila pulang ke Malaysia?


"Dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you"

The Reasons

oh yeah, recently we faced this kinda complicated phase.
I made mistakes u said, i did apologize but i know, too much apologies annoyed u aite? ur sick of my apologies, I asked for ur forgiveness and i still did that, over and over again.
u said im stubborn, i didn listen to u and i admit that (sometimes).

you,
looking at my last 2 months' bills has changed almost everything. I must save my HSBC so that i will feel secured and you know how much i need that. Yes, u called me and u always did. Thanks for that. But the fact that i need to keep topping up my skype also hurts my HSBC. u know that im saving money-to buy a car, to survive my life in Msia once i get back for good. er..in 4 months time?

you,
oh yeah..just to make myself busy so that i wont think of u that much anymore. thought i could give u space so that we could reduce the cost. to make things better, i bought more books, i spent more time with friends, i decided to buy a musical instrument, i learned to play guitar (sikit-sikit), i decided to get myself an Ipod which i think i could not afford it or maybe it's just a waste for me. i would rather use my old+cacat a bit 512mb Creative mp3 player. dah buruk kan, calar-calar, tempat batery dah ada patah sikit.

you,
u said that i have changed. which part of me changed? pipi i memang makin chubby, yes i accept that. ok, u said i paid less attention to u, u said i just do not care that much anymore. really? i did not realise that, maybe because of the environment or maybe the past has taught me not to be that kind of person anymore. if u know what i mean. im pretty sure u know me well, u know shits i went through. one more thing, once u said i kept complaining about things. even small matters bother me. well, maybe it's due to distance. maybe i was seeking attention from u. u know how good i was when ur around? it's different. now, that's why i reduced my complaints. less attention seeking=less complaints=wondered u

you,
you are just a great man for me. yes you are. why?

1. because u always there for me. u listened to all my ramblings day and night. u never get bored. u understand how hurt it was when i had to hear the almost-divorce thingy. at that time, i know you have been the best buddy and lover.
2. because u will always call me back when we had fight/argument. u know how to stop my tears. u would not mind to wake up at 3 in the morning to listen to my ramblings.
   

you,
but i cant stand it when u get mad at me. yes, maybe i triggered the anger but please, dont say those words to me. for this part im sure i have changed. when ur mad, i would just listen to you, i would argue less, but mommy said jangan kasi muke sangat, nnt kene pijak kepala. hurmm.. i need to agree with mommy for some circumtances.

you,
u see that i made the effort when i gave u that little surprise. u liked it, u were speechless. we felt great at that time:)
however, one thing upset me. the card i sent u, it didn reach you. that was not the first time.
u still remember those letters i wrote to u? in order to cut the cost, i cant call u that often anymore, hence i wrote u letters. whenever i feel like talking to you, i will write one. ermm..maybe one letter per day. or maybe just a short note. after for a bout a month doing that, i compiled the letters and posted it to you..but u know..U DIDN GET THE LETTERS. u didn receive them. i cant say anything other than giving a sigh, a big SIGH. who's to blame huh? Post Malaysia kah? i know, their services sucks jugak la at times.

you,
u said we have changed. we were not arguing or fighting over stupid things like before. we grew up, im sure of that. yes, it's good but the fact that less attention for each other has worried u.




you,
im sorry (again). just hanging there. u made up ur mind, decisions made.

take care.

*writings are bad, banyak short form gaya penulisan malas, bahasa tunggang langgang, biarkan mereka.*

Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging-Filem Comel

Aku baru tonton cerita comel-Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.
Weh, tajuk tak comel pon, but believe me (sila abaikan Thongs and Snogging tu yer). Cerita ni cute lah.
Filem komedi 2008 terbitan Britain ini berjaya pikat hati aku dengan

1. Adanya watak-watak picisan comel; Adik perempuan Georgia, Kucing Georgia named Angus (serius lah, kucing die furry serta comot tapi comel). Paling best scene adik Georgia pakai custom kucing dan dia pakaikan Angus si kucing dengan baju princess. Why adik dia buat macam tu? Sebab adik dia suka kunun-kunun jadi kucing, cute!
   
2. Aku suka lokasi penggambarannya, di Eastbourne. Eastbourne terletak dekat dengan London, Southampton, memang betul-betul tepi pantai (sila lihat peta jika mahu lagi teliti). Macam mana tahu Eastbourne? sebab aku tengok bas yang Georgia naik ada tulis-Eastbourne. (ha ha ha telitinya tengok movie).
3. British accent yang...agak melampau lah. haha. Tapi still buat aku suka.
   
4. Sinematografi yang cantik. Ya lah kan, dah lah lokasi tepi pantai, cantik pula sinematografinya. aih..buat aku rindu pantai saja.
   
5. Jalan cerita nya walaupun mungkin tipikal, kisah remaja belasan tahun tapi mampu buat aku mahu tetap terus tonton sampai habis.
6. Scene adik Georgia pura-pura jadi kucing sambil buat bunyi 'Meeooowww'...waktu pertama kali jumpa Robbie di kolam renang. haha..
   
7. Soundtrack filem ini yang aku suka; Lenka-The Show.

Aku saja buat review filem ni, mana tahu kamu dah ketandusan idea nak tonton filem apa. The Confession of A Shopaholic juga kelakar! Masa aku tonton filem tu, ada lah tak sampai 10 orang dalam sinema tu. Apa lagi, aku gelak betul-betul lah. Suka gelagat Isla Fisher dalam filem tu. Isla Fisher ini tidak lah gorgeous gila, tapi comel serta articulate. aku rasa ciri itu lagi penting dari rupa cantik sahaja. hehe

*Aku rasa, kalau aku masih usia 15 tahun pasti sudah suka watak Robbie. nges. nges. *

Hiatus

Im going on an indefinite hiatus.

No one knows what tomorrow may bring. right?






See you..

Perempuan Hebat, Isteri Terbaik?

Perbualan dengan Mr. A:

A: "tahu kan kenapa perempuan tak boleh jadi leader?"
Z: "ermm..tahu rasanya..i read somewhere..it's about emotion too aite..perempuan kadang-kadang (ke selalu) emosi"
A: "aah..tapi ade sebab lain jugak..perempuan tu nanti dikhuatiri akan lupa diri.."
Z: "oh yer..but i've been leaders too..school, college, uni life.. ok jer.."
A: "yer, orang tau..tapi fikir jugak..perempuan yang hebat dalam social lifenye..adakah die juga akan isteri yang hebat untuk rumah tangga nya?"

*diam..fikir sejenak*

ok, aku faham maksudnya. perempuan, walau kau perempuan hebat di luar sana, u might hold many social responsibilities, but dont forget: jadilah isteri yang hebat dan terbaik juga untuk suami mu.
and i understand, im still learning to be one. i will try my very best ;)

ok, mari dinner.

Sheffield Gig Hoyeh!

Almost 4 years in Sheffield. seperti biasa, isu Sheffield Gig timbul lagi. macam biasa lah, mailing list aku bertimbun, berderet email perihal Sheffield Gig.
bagus, nasihat dan peringatan sesama manusia itu bagus. Aku setuju dengan Ameng. cuba ambil dari ayat Ameng: apa sbnrnya objektif kita? to show off our 'piety', to free ourselves off the responsibility, or to help our fellow muslims?
ape-ape pun sila periksa niat anda.

aku rasa aku dapat beza orang yang betul betul ikhlas nak nasihat dengan orang yang rasa dirinya cukup bagus, dialah paling mulia, dialah paling baik. lagi tak enak bila ayat-ayat yang dia guna tu menjengkelkan serta buat orang lain sakit hati.

cmon lah, aku sudah jumpa manusia-manusia macam ni sejak sekolah dulu lagi. tipikal.

nampak macam dah bagus dah, tapi bila nampak orang lain yang mereka rasa tidak kena di mata mereka, terus mengata di belakang. mengumpat sesedap hati.
aku rasa lah kan, dari kau mengumpat sesedap rasa di belakang, baik kau approach terus face-to-face.
tak pun kau cuba jadi kawan dia. tanya apa yang tidak kena, selidik dulu cerita di sebaliknya. cuba faham apa sebenarnya yang berlaku. berdakwah kan perlu ada unsur kasih sayang. (seorang senior yang dah pulang ke Msia yang pesan begini kat aku. senior ni aku memang respect, kata-kata dia bisa buat orang lembut hati, tengok mukanya yang senyum manis pun orang suka nak approach. bagusnya:))

maaflah, aku bukan lah arif sangat bab-bab ni. aku juga tak lari dari salah silap.
sekadar dari pemerhatian aku saja.

oh ya, kalau rasa entri ini agak kontroversi dan mahu komen, sila komen dengan menggunakan nama betul anda ya. sebarang anonymous atau nama samaran yang aku tak kenal tidak akan dilayan.
sekian.

Bila Tersengguk-sengguk dalam Kelas Adalah Perkara Biasa

okeh, aku akan delete entry ni nanti.
sejak semalam aku mengantuk dalam kelas. aku rasa dah tahap tersengguk-sengguk dalam kelas. hurghh..dalam tahun ni, semalam kali pertama aku mengantuk dan tersengguk-sengguk dalam kelas okeh! aku macam terseksa sikit sebab cant help yawning dan tulisan dah jadi cakar kucing. ggrrr

lagi bengkek bila aku balik rumah, hilang trus mengantuk tapi kepala dah mintak bantal. aku tak faham apsal bila dah rasa nak lena dalam kelas,tapi bila balik rumah aku segar sikit tapi sebenarnya aku perlu tidur. tapi tapi still aku tak boleh lena di bilik.

hari ni kelas analogue 2 jam, aku mengantuk lagi. damn.
aku rasa teruk ok, serius rasa nak pegi toilet during the lecture but toilet macam jauh.
maka aku agak terseksa lagi untuk kelas 2 jam tadi.

hey hey, sekarang aku perlu tidur sekejap okeh. next class is at 4pm. warrghh kelas petang memang siksa ok, aku nak kelas pagi!!

aku harap aku sihat, pulang dari kelas tadi hujan lebat, dengan slumbernye aku redah hujan, habis basah. tahniah..tahniah

-nap-

Perempuan Gemuk & Kucing Malas

sila lihat pipi perempuan jaket pink itu, pipi nya gemok, kaki juga besar. suka kucing pula. ish ish

hari ni cuaca bagus juga, just like yesterday. i consider this to be a bad thing about me: aku senang dipengaruh oleh cuaca. cuaca baik as in sunny day, sun shine through my window, maka mood aku pun bertambah-tambah baik. bad thing la kan sebab sepatutnye mood itu sendiri yang perlu control. alah, tapi tak kritikal pun pengaruh cuaca terhadap aku ;)

mari cerita sedikit tentang semalam. Aidil got a guest from Worcester, Afta. so before balik telah ada sesi fotografi versi kanak-kanak riang di Springfield. i bumped into a very cute boy name Hafiey. haha..

Ini Hafiey. beliau ialah kanak-kanak comel. lihatlah, dia melambai-lambai tangan.

i like him so much and he will turn 2 this saturday. i hope his mommy (kak yati) will invite me to come over to a so-called birthday party (haha tidak malu;p). ape ape pun sila lihat gambar semalam. more pictures are available now on FB and fotopages.;)

cerita hari ini. i just realised that the last time i called omma was last week. I MISS them terribly. like..rindu rindu sangat. homesick sampai rasa tidak seronok. rindu kamu juga..:(..
well..me and cenad were gossiping dan berangan-angan tentang plan-plan gembira once aku balik Malaysia nanti. antara angan-angan-yang-kunun-kunun-banyak-duit adalah: A Trip to Korea!! wah, boleh lah jumpa Rain kan? haha. aku tahu Cenad suka Hyun Bin, omma pula suka Kwong San Woo. omma, i hope the spelling was correct;p
Angan ke-2 adalah untuk membelanja Cenad makanan Korea di Korea Garden (if im not mistaken, nama kedai tu memang korea garden). eh ..itu angan-angan Cenad lah kan, untuk mempow aku makan..hehe
antara ayat favourite Cenad ketika mengorder makanan bila aku yang belanja ialah:
"Kak lang, confirm kan hang belanja? kan? kan?" *sambil mata mengerling pada menu makanan yang sedap dan agak mahal*
bila aku kata Ya, dia beri senyum yang buat poket aku kempis.

ish ish..i just noticed that i laughed a lot in this entry. ssyhhh..which explains how happy I am now ;)

ok peeps, gotta cook for lunch.

later

Ini Basi, Tapi Masih Boleh Jadi Segar

7 years back..prefects yang paling..er..breaking the rules? hehe
standing from LEFT: Lyan, Afinas, K zhali, Nad, Fatin, Ajat, Azima (Nama lakonan: Swee Lan)
Sitting from LEFT: Azwa (Aman), Ina, CT Azwa, Hani, Z.

Aku selalunya tiada semasa proses perjumpaan beramai-ramai, gathering

Summer di Malaysia= gathering, futsal, bergossip. haha

sedikit updates tentang ex-Sultan Mohd Jiwa's:

Officially taken, Tied The Knot (Married):

1. Che Yan
2. Nashitah
3. Farahiyah with a baby
4. Azah with a baby
5. Soddiqa
6. Shazlin Elaiza (Jaja)
7. KingKing's WeddingJaja's WeddingThe only wedding I attended: Nashitah's
   

Engaged :

1. Lyan
   

sorry, ini je list yang aku ada. sapa tahu sila update lagi okeh?

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever) -

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
(Takper, tahun ni baru 24. Eh next year ok, i will turn 25. dem)
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track (yes we are)


Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money (sila update CV anda dan submit it to the UKEC careers fair. haha)
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny? (no it wont be)
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule (break the rules, fly pergi town malam-malam. warden marah)