To Grieve Over The Past..

Why grieving over the past?
There are reasons why people in the past are not meant to be with you now..

I Terribly Hate This Feeling, Ok?

Im mad, obviously.
Feel like rubbish.
No words are worth saying when Im mad, they end up to be rubbish, useless, pointless, heart-aching and regretful.
But I cant help to express my anger here.

Please, what else should I say to express my feeling?

Syyesssshhhhh bengannnggg...
:(

Bye!

A Bad Tudung Day, It Was

GGrrrr...What a day eyh?
Since last night or since the last two days I cannot talk to him.
Masing-masing busy, time difference lagi, commitment lagi. Distance + time difference + commitment gave us a hard time though. Sigh. Whatever.
So last night I went to bed early since I wasn't that well. Sore throat+dizzy head+cough. At about 10pm I already went ZZzzz...
Then at about 1am suddenly terjaga. Tengok YM, he buzzed me at 1030pm. Ha, stress di situ sebab aku baru jek tidur kan..Tapi memang tak sedar ape dah la bila tak sihat sangat ni.
Then I woke up early, at 5am. I know that would be the best time for us to talk.
Then Encik Sayang pergi makan pula, yang aku ni tak de kredit plak nak bgtau yang aku dah bangun.
So tersengguk2 juga la tunggu Encik Sayang pulang. Rasa sungguh stress lagi. Sigh..
Then setelah 25 minit tunggu, he's back. Then chat sebentar, aku perlu bersiap2 untuk mandi pula. Nak kerja katakan.
After mandi and all, sempat call skype kejap. He saw my unwell face. Aku sengaja conceal my pale face dengan lipstick and eye shadow. Hehe tapi masih dapat dilihat wajah pucatku. :P. He started to worry. Nothing much la dear.
Then off to work. Dalam bus otw ke office, Encik Sayang called but tak dengar suaranya. Ada la 5 kali he called. Dahla boss aku naik the same bus, dok dekat la kan dengan aku. Ha, amek. Segan sikit di situ. So aku tak boleh la kan nak repeat banyak kali "Helo..helo..abang..tak dengar la.."..Nak cakap abang pun aku segan bila tahu boss di situ. Haha. So cover2 la, cakap aby..:P

Then sampai office I told Encik Sayang, jom kita chat kejap di facebook, tapi dengan volume yang paling slow, kang boss dengaq plak. Haha :P

So chat chat chat..then off.
Sungguh banyak keje nak settle arini.
I was unwell, macam nak baringgg je kat workstation tuh.
Tudung yg aku pakai arini plak macam buruk jek, bueks!.
Senget sane sini, serious macam perempuan tak reti pakai tudung.
Then nak dijadikan citer, contact lense aku pula terkoyak di sebelah kiri.
My left eye got irritated lah, tak tahan ma..So cabut terus lense tu.
Tinggal lah lense kanan jek.
Ha, kan dah weng2..Aku memang macam orang buta tadi.
Last-last waktu lunch terpaksa keluar beli lense baru.
Nasib baik la 1 pair is just RM18.

Ok, lunch time.
I ordered bihun sup tulang.
Masin you, masam terlebih pula tu.
Aish..what a day kan? Ade jek tak kene.

Then after lunch keje balik cam biaser, kene g jumpa boss aku yg lady ni.
She asked me, how everything's going apart from work.
She meant-personal life la. Hows Bintulu and all.
Honestly I replied: TAK OK. Haha
She said its ok, I'll get use to it. Apart from that, die bilang if ada problem just talk talk dengan dia. Haha sweet kan? To be honest, aku macam agak cuak dengan boss yg lady ni sebab sebenarnya aku kagum, dia nampak strict, dedicated to her job but deep inside she cares:)

Oklah, tadi dah skype lama jua dengan Encik Sayangku. Hehe.
Ok, now I realised entry ni macam kosong, pointless other than telling you all my BAD TUDUNG DAY :P

Tu apehal la kan nak hi-light sumer bende ngn kaler merah:P

Bye! nak mandi :P

Ini lah hasil menunggu malam semalam. Korek gambar lama :P

When Boredom Strikes, This Is Where It Brings Me

Good evening girls.
Ehehe Im sooo the very sure all of you who are reading this are girls. Kan? Except for him la. Or maybe my little brother.
Anyways, I have nothing much to say today as Im really really tired.
Tonnes of works are mounting kat office. Pening kepala nak buat yg mana.
Biarlah, lets not talk about office matters kat rumah kan? :)

Since I have nothing much to say, this is what I found bila korek2 entry yang hanya jadi draft suatu ketika dulu..

1. This is what I wrote when I first fall for him. Hehe. But he never knew about this entry :P

"One day I came to this one place. It's far, no one can hardly see it. It's gonna cost a lot to get there. I was mesmerized and captivated when I first arrived there. I walked..I walked..I saw a lot of people..They were strangers.. Suddenly..There's one thing caught my eyes. I found this one cute creature. I picked it up. Oh, it's a Monster. Little monster who lovesssss to eat. My life was enlightened and happier eversince I had the monster with me. With the monster, I laughed more often, I feel alive, I feel safe.. The monster may look naughty and loves to bully other people..but deep down I know the monster is a well-behaved creature. A good one..."

2. Entry ni pulak, aku dah tak hingat apa punya kes la :P
"When I can sink no lower,
When Im at my lowest state,
When Im too fragile to withstand the heat,
When Im too weak to get up and stand up for myself,
When I really need the strength..
I wish it didnt happen,
I wish I wasnt there to see, hear and feel it.
I wish I was given a chance to at least say something and talk.
I wish I was strong enough to handle this alone.
I wish I wasnt this surprised for what had happened.
I wish I wasnt her, the spoiler :( "


Well, there are some entries yang I could never post them here. I might be deleting them soon. Why? Because they are too bitter, lets forgive and forget, shall we?
Oklah, having a bad sore throat. :( Headache too. Tak suke.
I better haf enuf sleep. good nyte people!

Jiwa Kacau yg Sengaja Dikacau

1. Boring, petang Ahad di Bintulu when nothing you can do. I fell asleep while waiting for sayang's reply. He was busy repairing his computer, kesian sebab his computer kena virus. Hence the whole day we didn't Skype or go online. Sobsob..
2. Recently I kept thinking about this: "What if I change my career path, to be a lecturer?" Sobsob again..
3. Esok Isnin=Kerja. Aih, boring!
   
4. I washed my fleece blanket but belum dijemur. So now I have no blanket, air-cond bilik sgt weng sometimes it went too cold, sometimes it can be hot. er..warm.
5. Perut sakit, bestfriend belum pulang..
6. I ade sebaldi baju yg belum dijemur, I malasssss sangat nak sidai. I pemalassss sangat bab2 handling my own clothes. Beli je pandai. Hehe. Kindly appreciated if you could sidaikan for me. thanks! ^_^
   
7. Asyik dengar lagu "Move Along" by All American Rejects. Pagi tadi pula dgr lagu2 boyband: N'sync, BSB. Ish ish..sah takda kerja ni. Hihi
   
8. Tadi tengok status YM this one friend: "musim orang kawen yg mencabar kesabaran". I dont know la what she meant by that. Tapi I wonder, why people berlumba-lumba nak kwen time bulan Doblas yg sungguh packed dengan weddings ni? hello, kawen la bulan lapan ke, sembilan ke, mac ke..pilih jek bulan2 lain, can ar? Kan dah clashed, tatau wedding mana nak pegi. Eleh, padahal I tak dapat pergi any weddings pun sebab stranded kat Bintulu ni. Tiket nak balik mahal ah, sorry weh! Hopefully korang tak merajuk, wedding aku nanti datang la yeaks..Hehe

Ok, nak pergi dapur and buat kerja, handle my clothes..Pergi suap mulut dengan makanan.

I miss the snowflakes, but not the winter! (^_^)"I dropped a tear into the ocean. The day I found it is the day when I will stop missing you.."

Perempuan Kedua

When you read the title, what's popped into your mind?
Hehe.
Yes, it's the second woman. Also termed as "Kekasih Gelap". Sort of la.
Recently I talked to this one friend di Bintulu ni. (sebab tu saya tak mahu anyone from Bintulu to read this).
Was shocked to hear her story. Patut lah dia sungguh berahsia dengan love story nya..
Rupanya..boyfriend nya ialah seorang suami orang..
Sebetulnya, saya kasihan mendengar kisah dia. Nak blame dia, I dont think it was totally her mistake. Most probably salah lelaki tu.
How did they know each other?
They met in a plane on the way ke Bintulu. Masa tu lelaki tu ialah tunangan orang, tapi still ada hati nak tackle my friend tuh. Bad ass, isnt he? Mind my language.

The worse thing is, lelaki tu kept his status as a secret.
My friend ni pun akhirnya tersangkut jua dengan lelaki tu.
Until one day:

"Im getting married next month"

My friend ni terkejut, sedih usah dikata lah.
Menangis meraung berhari-hari mengenangkan kekasih hati itu akan jadi milik orang lain, terasa bodoh juga kerana ditipu.

Yang peliknya, lelaki tu tetap mahu my friend ni.
The night before his akad nikah, he texted my friend saying :
"Im going to be a someone's husband but I still want you".

Sigh, what to do if you're in my friend's shoes?
Normally, perempuan memang mudah cair dengan ayat-ayat begitu.

But my friend was good enough, she avoided him for days, months. That's what she was supposed to do pun kan?
She thought it'd work, tapi tetap hampeh usahanya.

The guy still merayu mahu kan my friend.
Katanya, the moment dia bertunang dengan wife nya dulu was a mistake.
Konon2 his heart tak sepenuhnya sayang kepada si isteri.
Dia pernah confess pada isterinya, mahu bercerai. Katanya lagi, dia hanya sayang kepada isteri, tapi tak cinta.
What the fish kan?

And the story goes on..Until today
My friend still sticks with the guy.
Saya tak tahu apa ending mereka.
The guy dalam process nak ceraikan isterinya dan nak berkahwin dengan my friend ni.

What say you?

Moga jadi pengajaran. Sekian

Peng-Umuman

Semekom..(ish ish apa bagi salam lagu ni)
Assalamualaikum..
I feel better now.
Tadi lepas sedih sedih, terus g toilet. Gosok gigi, cuci muka.
Masuk bilik, sapu toner and cream di muka.
Makan buah pear wangi before tidur (kunun-kunun petua nak sihat)
Hehe..
Sorry la too many times changing the URL.
So this URL hopefully will be the final URL for me. :)

Ok, mari buat review :

New URL : http://watashinobloggudesu.blogspot.com/
-Apekah nama macam Jepung? Hehe. Saje je nak kasi susah orang nak type or search =p.

Blog's name: The White Gold Ring
-Uish, sounds like a materialistic. Hikhik..Tak lah, saja suka suka. Tu saje idea yg ade:)

Hopefully after creating the new URL, hidup saya lebih privasi.
Syarat-syarat untuk baca blog ini ialah:

1. Anda bukan student Sheffield/alumni Sheffield.
2. Anda bukan pekerja Petronas MLNG.
3. Anda bukan kenalan/rakan Encik Sayang.

Senang je kan syarat nye? Hehe


Bersabar lah dgn saya untuk beberapa hari ini, terima kasih. Sayang kamu kamu :)

Nak tidur lah, harap-harap esok boleh jumpa kamu di awal pagi..

Ok now, dah boleh letak gambar Encik Sayang dengan senang hati~~~.. hehe..

Masa ini, masih belum kenal Encik Sayang pun. lalala..~

When the world pushes you down on your knees, you are in the perfect position to pray..:)

Saya Nak Pemadam Magic, Mahu Penyembuh Luka.

Nak cerita direct jek la, xnk buat ayat bunga2.
While writing this, I just had my tears rolling down onto my cheek.
Yes, aku nangis ok tadi. Kalau lah tears itu macam hujan, kiranya tadi hujan lebat.
Kenapalah banyak benda yg membengangkan/memarahkan/menyedihkan jadi pada aku hari ni ek?
Mari huraikan satu-satu.:

1. Adik aku terasa dengan aku. Tapi dah settle.
2. Aku emo lagi, Encik Sayang tersilap sikit, aku dah emo. Ya lah, aku risau la. Bila Encik Sayang kata control emosi, aku risau nanti if aku pregnant, lagi emo tau. Aku risau, Encik Sayang boleh ke terima lagi keadaan aku time pregnant? Masa tu, aku mungkin akan bertukar watak secara mendadak..Ya Allah, mudahkanlah urusan kami..Aku sayang sangat-sangat pada Encik Sayang tu, maafkan Za...Hari ni banyak benda mahu digest.
3. Sedang seronok berbual dengan Encik Sayang setelah emo-emo, ada rakan buzz di YM. Tahu apa katanya? "Aku nak mintak maaf". Aku tanya: "Kenapa nak mintak maaf?" Dia jawap: "Sebab dulu macam banyak mengata ko.". Damn, what do you expect me to feel? She reminds me of those hari-hari yg aching masa di UK dulu. Dia pernah buat aku rasa, I Wish I Didnt Have a Friend Like You. Teruk kan? But that's how she made me feel. Hurm, biar ah, cerita lama. Sakit memang sakit weh, itu yg buat aku nangis masa sedang borak-borak dengan Encik Sayang. Aku bilang pada Sayang, aku berat hati nak maafkan rakan tu. Encik Sayang kata jangan begitu. Aku sedih weh, sedih gila gila bila ingat balik apa rakan tu dah buat. Dia buat aku rasa hidup di Sheffield itu horror. Maybe kau orang tak faham hidup di overseas yg family takde, kawan pulak perangai macammm....hurm dot dot dot di situ malas nak sambung. Ah, get over it! Aku tak mampu nak reply YM rakan tadi tu. Entah lah, fikiran aku serabai lagi. Nanti lah ok, jangan risau lah. Hati aku baik, nanti dah sejuk dan berlembut, I'll get back to you.

Item ke-3 itu paling significant untuk kesedihan aku. Bukan aku sedih dia minta maaf, tapi her existence buat aku ingat zaman-zaman sedih aku di Sheffield dulu. Sikit pun aku dah taknak ingat, tapi malam ni kan dah muncul balik kenangan pahit tuh. Aih..
Tak perlu lah aku hurai di sini apa kenangan2 tuh, nanti ternangis lagi pula.

Untuk Sayang saya, saya minta maaf. You're the best for me, you're my treasure. I dont want any other men. Sayang sudah cukup untuk saya..:)

Saya Dibuli, Blueks.

Dulu masa trip saya ke Mesir, saya pernah berniat untuk membeli niqab. Kiranya macam purdah la..
Tapi hajat tak kesampaian..:)
Tetapi malam semalam saya ada attempt untuk pakai purdah.

Let pictures do the talking ok? :)

Ha..Ini masa mula-mula nak cuba..belum kena kan jarum lagi..Selepas kena kan jarum..Ada orang tu sungguh beriya-iya nak lihat =p.

Amacam, ok tak? Hehe

Kenapa ya?

1. Kenapa, bila kamu minta dari saya, saya bagi? Bila saya minta dari kamu pula, kamu tipu saya? Kamu kata itu bukan blog kamu? Saya tak faham.
2. Ada rakan cakap, kenapa kita susah nak dapat apa yg kita ingin sangat2? -->To my friend N, it's because Allah knows we are patient enough to wait:)
3. Kenapa ya, hari ni cucur udang saya masin? Sebab saya tak reti masak cucur udang gamaknya =p.
   
4. Kenapa ya, orang terlalu risau pasal final year project mereka? Tak perlu sangat, bukan nak demotivate kamu semua ya adik2..It's not all about the final year project pun later on when you work. Macam saya, my employer langsung tak tengok atau tanya pun apa tajuk final year project saya. so dont get yourself too wired up with it.
   
5. Kenapa ya, bila saya telefon rumah saja, terus rasa homesick, tergedik-gedik nak pulang ke rumah? Lantas Ibu saya cakap, usah bazir wang. Ibu bilang, kalau tiket RM400-Rm500 pergi balik pun dikira banyak. Ibu ujar lagi, gaji pekerja kilang sebulan pun dalam RM400-RM500 sebulan. Saya diam sejenak, terfikir untuk tak membazir.
6. Kenapa ya, bila sejuk saja saya rasa malas, mengantuk dan mahu tidur? hehe. Encik Sayang, tahulah sekarang winter..Mamau malas-malas ok..Study rajin-rajin ya Aby..:)

Tahun Baru, Cinta Baru.

Saya bangun awal, saya tak bisa solat :P. Makanya, mampu bangun, tengok laptop dan Sayang tak online pun.
Maka tidur lah balik :P.
Baik, di pagi Jumaat yg mulia ini..Hati rasa sungguh lembut. Hehe so selama ni tak lembut ka? =p
Saya sebetulnya sungguh 'teringat' pada Encik Sayang yg jauh itu. :)

Tahun baru, saya harap akan ada sesuatu yg baru untuk saya.
Yang pasti nya, sejak April 2009 lalu saya telah menemui cinta baru saya.
April itu lah saya mula bertemu Encik Sayang saya. Up to now, it has been approximately 6 months since our hearts have 'something' for each other. Hehe.
Seeing him, I found new things in life. I learnt a lot too.
In my previous years, I was a different person. Although not a totally different person now, but I slowly changed.
Being with him, I learnt how to respect my partner. Dulu saya tahu kita perlu respect pasangan, but the real means to respect. How?
Bila dengan Encik Sayang, saya banyak belajar memahami, banyak belajar tidak marah-marah, banyak belajar bersabar, banyak belajar untuk berlembut, banyak belajar untuk berhikmah.
Kadang-kadang bukan lah Encik Sayang ajar saya secara direct pun. It's just the way he treats me most of the time, itu lah cara kita belajar.
Contohnya, Encik Sayang memang bukan yg suka marah-marah, bukan jenis yg suka raise his voice, jenis yg respect saya, jenis yg memahami saya, yg tahu buat saya rasa sungguh istimewa walaupun ketika hari2 sibuk. Dia juga seorang yg menghargai apa-apa jua pencapaian saya, walaupun saya tak sedar pun tentang itu:).
Dia juga tahu bila saya rasa tak puas hati bila kami berdiscuss. (haha) :p. Dia tahu lah, dari muka saya ni.
Dia juga tahu bila saya nampak begitu comel. Sayang yg kata ok, bukan saya. Haha. Kadang-kadang dia notice saya sudah buat muka comel. Ehe ehe ehe mana ada la=p.

Saya pun tak tahu lah, kadang-kadang rasa sungguh 'magic' akhirnya begini dengan Encik Sayang.
Perkenalan yg sungguh singkat, tapi things we went through..they were a lot :).
Saya igt lagi, pertama kali kita jumpa. Sayang greeted me with "Assalamualaikum.." He smiled sweetly to me.
Masa tu saya sungguh malu malu. Hanya mampu balas salam dia saja. Hikhik. Nak pandang dia pun segan tau tau..
Then, masa tu juga terus jumpa all the families, termasuklah anak saudara nya yg comel tu.
Alhamdulillah, everything went well when we first met each other.
Saya ingat lagi, masa Encik Sayang dan mama nya nak hantar saya pulang ke parents saya. He drove a car, saya duduk di belakang Encik Sayang.
Then suddenly someone texted me.
"Sayanggg...rindu la.."
Eh, Encik Sayang text me? Mungkin message yg lama baru sampai kot..Sebab dia sedang drive, takkan la nak text saya kan?
So saya pun buat dunno je la kan..Tak reply pun=p.

Then ada lagi text: "Sayang sombong la..hehe"

Laaa..rupanya memang Encik Sayang text saya, padahal dia sedang drive and his mama ada kat sebelah. Hahaha. The moment was sweet, cute and funny.
Saya pun reply, nanti dicop 'sombong' pulak kan:P.

Dan, pertama kali parents saya ambil saya dari rumah Encik Sayang, we were apart. We both rasa berat sangat nak tinggal each other kan? Hehe. Terus Encik Sayang text me saying he misses me, berat nak lepas saya pergi.

Ok, itu bulan Ogos yg lepas.

Sekarang dah masuk Disember, Januari 2009 pula menanti kurang 2 minggu saja dari sekarang.

Saya bahagia dengan cinta baru saya, alhamdulillah kerana saya berjumpa dia April lalu.
Ironi nya, Encik Sayang nampaknya berjaya mendidik saya untuk jadi yang lebih bagus walaupun usianya 2 tahun lebih muda.
He managed to handle me well. Ya la, kadang-kadang kita perempuan kan nak emo-emo juga at times =P.

Kesimpulannya, Im grateful for having someone like him.
We are counting the days before we are officially Mr and Mrs..R...dot dot dot..* Eh sayang, apehal la kan nak dot dot dot panjangggg sangat tu?* hahaha.

Selepas 2010, tinggal lagi setahun saja lagi, doakan kami.

Untuk Sayang saya, perihal semalam itu adalah pengorbanan kita tau. Bukan keputusan kosong atau tak bijak.

Oklah, seronok pula tulis panjang2. Hihi.
Eh, havent you heard, Encik Sayang itu adalah kenalan adik saya? =p. *malu malu kuching*.

Bye! Hik.

Salji, Tahun Baru 1431

Snowy Sheffield:
Masya-Allah..It's snowing there..in Sheffield..the place I used to be..The place I learnt to be a real human, to survive without family by my side, to endure all the pains by myself..
Snowflakes always bring me this weird feeling everytime. Like what? For the first time I had the chance to see the snow flakes, I was breathtakingly happy. Ya la, macam tak percaya kan, snow turun depan mata.
When it is snowing, there's this mixed feelings. 20%-Amaze, 30%-Sadness, and 50%-Happyness. It was saddening because I experienced it alone, no family with me. Happyness because that was the first time I feel the snowflakes:).

Tahun baru 1431:
To all Muslims out there, selamat tahun baru 1431. Saya ialah seorang yg susah nak ada new resolutions. Tapi bila dewasa ni, bila kita dah boleh urus diri sendiri, masalah sendiri, kadang-kadang kita tak sedar yg azam baru itu muncul tanpa sengaja. Bila dah dewasa, saya percaya kita sentiasa mahu yg terbaik untuk diri. Maka dari situ lah kita cuba untuk berubah dan mula merencana azam baru. Alhamdulillah, untuk tahun baru ni, saya telah tidak sengaja merencana azam baru saya..Ada juga azam baru dengan Encik Sayang..:)..Thanks much my dear..I love u very much..:)))..Moga moga urusan kita dimudahkan..amiin..:)

Oklah, Sayang dah keluar. Saya pula dah mengantuk. Esok Awal Muharam. Cuti. Yey! Hehe.
Saya sungguh tak larat hari ini. Period pain yg sungguh unbearable, ternangis di office semasa lunch hour. Sedih, office mates yg para lelaki itu tak mungkin faham derita siang tadi.
Ok lah, jom tidur. Salam..

Blame the Hormone

Helo world! A lot of things stuck in mind, waiting to be spilled out here. It's no longer a punching bag, I suppose. Haha.
Maybe I can call this my..my..my er..e-diary? =p
Well today things went pretty smoothly.
Apart from..I was mad just now with..with..him.
Huhu, the timing was just 'right'. Today is the first day my 'best friend' datang. If you know what I mean.
And tadi ada a little bit salah faham dengan Encik Sayang. Kesian dia, aku terus emo. Dah lamaaaaa tak emo macam tadi. Sorry baby..sorry..I wont marah marah macam tadi dah..Sigh, period period. Blame the hormone. Entah kenapa aku memang tak boleh sabar tadi, we used to discuss elok elok if anything happen. But tadi I lost control. Ergh..
Alhamdulillah everything dah ok..:)

Nways, now Encik Sayang is in class. Sempat lagi tgk dia di webcam tadi-After the 'drama'. =p
walaupun aku marah tadi, tapi bila tengok muka dia yg comel itu tersenyum dan bila dia buat muka comel, terus tak jadi marah. hehe.

Ok, talking about webcam.
Remember, I think I told you that Encik Sayang sebelum ni belum ada internet di rumah barunya.
Makanya, susah juga nak contact each other. Nak text him mahal. 50sen per sms. Sedih sangat2 especially bila aku kehabisan kredit secara tiba-tiba di kala sedang ber-sms perkara yg crucial. Like last night, ada discuss this one matter. Suddenly dah tak boleh reply, nak top up guna cimbclicks tak boleh pula. Memang sungguh stress, Encik Sayang pula dah risau why aku tak reply reply. Itu lah susahnya bila internet tak ada.

Then this early morning after I solat subuh, he texted me.
"Sayang, dah bangun? Abang online ym ni, ade benda bes nak bagitau:) "

I was sooo excited gila la kan. Then online jugak la di kala subuh2 tu..
Rupa-rupanya Sayang br beli broadband..Then he said, jom call through Skype.
Rupanya..rupanya he got another surprise..
He he he got a webcam already!! Patut la when he called kat Skype, ada video call skali. Alalalala..so sweet la sayang..I was freakingly happy sebab baru semalam I stress sgt2 sebab susah sungguh nak contact each other..Then the next morning he surprised me with those sweet news..
Thanks sayang, thanks thanks..:)

Oh apa ya nk cakap lagi.
A drama hebat terjadi malam semalam.
Nanti lah if free aku tulis di sini. It was about me and a housemate. Damn, hate it. Aku dan Jannah mesti famous lepas ni sebab housemate tu dah 'bawa mulut' ke orang lain perihal aku dan Jannah. Suka-hati-kau-lah.

OK, perut dah mula sakit.....
Sayang, cepat pulang ok.
Rindu sangat sangat sangat..:)

I'll Be More Free!

People yang I notice constantly baca blog I, sorry for not informing you my new url.
The reason I changed it: I dont want my public blog to be more public.
Maybe after this, my public blog but only to certain people out there:)

Bukan apa, all this while I macam segan segan or in other words I banyak juga tapis words because I know some people yg I rasa tak patut baca pun baca.
So tak best kan perlu filter sana sini. Hence the change.

Lepas ni since dah tukar everything, hopefully banyak lg truth yang akan keluar. Hehe

Ok guys, see u!

Bukan Tak Mahu

bukan aku tak mahu.
tapi belum masa.

tunggu ya.

:(

Jodoh dan Mati Itu, Allah yang Punyai Kuasa.

Cerita ini berlaku semalam.
It started with a PC Fair in Bintulu.
I just got back from PC Fair, then singgah makan di suatu kedai makan.
Di kedai itu ada disediakan tv besar, maka boleh menonton sambil makan.
Tepat pukul 8mlm, buletin utama TV3 bermula.
The Headline was:

"Kemalangan Telah Ragut Nyawa Pengantin yang Baru Bernikah 4 Jam".

http://www.bharian.com.my/Current_News/BH/Friday/Mutakhir/20091211151723/Article/index_html

Aku baru nak makan, tersentak tengok berita.
Gasp, Shocked.
Terdetik dalam hatiku, kesiannya pengantin perempuan tu. Siap tunjuk lagi inai masih merah di jari.
Pengantin lelaki bersama parentsnya were killed in an accident setelah 4 jam bernikah dengan isterinya.
Aku mula sebak, tak dapat cam siapa pengantin lelaki dan perempuan tu sebab sebak sungguh.
To be honest, walaupun at that moment still tak cam siapa pengantin itu, aku dapat rasakan betapa berat ujian mereka.

Aku beritahu Jannah, aku tak mahu the same thing happen to me and him. Sedihnya:(. Well, sape yg mahu kan? Masa tu juga lah teringat Encik Sayang yg sungguh jauh di mata.

Then we returned home.
Encik Sayang promised to go online to chat with me at 10pm.
So I waited for quite a while, ditambah dengan badan yg tak berapa sihat ini aku mula mahu tidur.
Kunun-kunun ada attempt nak merajuk dengan dia.
Then finally he texted and explained what happened. He was running this one program, so I supposedly need to understand, bukan merajuk :P.
Tiba-tiba rasa tak sampai hati nak merajuk lama-lama, was not his fault pun.

Suddenly ada kawan tegur di YM.
Rupa-rupanya kedua-dua pengantin tadi junior di Kolej Mara dulu. Ya, kini aku dah cam siapa mereka. Lagi la aku sedih kan, because I know them finally!.
I ingat lagi, Ariff tu macam pendiam juga orangnya, dulu study di UK juga but at different University.
The bride graduated from Auckland.

Moga Allah place Ariff, the parents and the friend di kalangan orang orang beriman.
Amiin..

Ya Allah, lindungilah orang-orang yang aku sayang itu..Jauhilah diri mereka dari bencana..

Certainly aku tak mahu jadi isterinya hanya untuk 4 jam..Biarlah sampai bila bila pun..hurmm..

Oklah, jumpa lagi. Salam..

Those Were The Days..

This video was taken in August 09, during fasting month.
Me and Kakak teman Myra makan kerana baby tecit itu sungguh lapar.

I'll tell you about this one news later in my next post ya? Have a good weekend peeps!

"We Want Foods.." said the Meow Meow..

Gambar masa Mentoring Workshop hari tu. From left: Syed, Saufi, Amar Jr, Edwin, Vee and Dilla.

Bintulu time: 555am.
Morning ! Awalnya saya bangun hari ni. Hihi.
Actually last night I slept early, as early as 7pm!. Right after performing Maghrib prayer, terus terbaring atas katil and I went to my lala land..Hehe.
Bila tersedar saja, it was 430am. Capai my hp, 2 messages from Encik Sayang. Kesian dia, mengadu hari semalam penat, tapi saya pula tidur dengan enak selama 9 jam!. Baru teringat belum solat isyak. Then solat, terus tunggu subuh since Subuh here in Bintulu is 503am.

Then I texted him, asked how is he doing.
He was about to sleep already.
Then I told him the real thing, the truth and pain that bothered me last night. (Sebab saya tidur awal).

He was worried, terus minta mahu bicara sama saya.
Katanya mengapa tak beritahu awal-awal sejak semalam. I was trying to be good not to disturb him in class.
If nak tunggu dia pulang ke rumah lambat lagi, hence the early sleep :P.

At about 520am we talked for a while. I told him tentang perkara yg "mengacau" fikiran dan fizikal saya sejak semalam:(
After almost one day we didnt hear from each other, surely rindu banget..

Encik Sayang sudah mahu tidur, goodnyte.
I continued my morning, went to the kitchen and goreng nugget for breakfast (sungguh tak sihat weh..). Then there were two cats ber-meow-meow to me asking for foods. Lapar yer sayang..kejap k nak reheat ikan..(friskies tak ada ok kerana mereka kucing yang bukan dibela, tetapi mungkin kucing jiran yang telah dibuang T-T)
So I fed them, kesian pulak lihat mereka lapar-lapar di pagi hari.
I understand how it feels bila perut sgt lapar di pagi hari, seawal 550am.

Nugget dah siap masak, biar kan dulu. Lepas mandi dan siap nak ke office baru saya makan.

Okla, its 604am already. Nak bersiap-siap pergi bekerja.

Potong Badan, Darah Memancut

Assalamualaikum semua..
How are u getting on? How was your weekend?
Mine was not that bad.

Saturday

800am-230pm
On Saturday had this MAKSAK Games, I represented my company for futsal ladies. The tournament ended at about 230pm.

645pm-1000pm
At night watched movie-Ninja Assassin with my 11 other friends! Gila, tonton movie seramai 12 orang. Haha betapa kami boring, maka keluar beramai2. Then makan ramai-ramai. Rashid the HR guy introduced me to some other new friends. They're funny. Hehe.

1000pm-1am
Chatted with him, had a conversation too. Alhamdulillah, so far we both can cope with the distance. Apa yg penting? Kerjasama..Hehe. The important things are: Patience, Understanding, Tolerance, Avoid Dramas (if you know what I mean), Trust. Kalau ada extra sila tambah lagi ok? :) Please pray for us..supaya kami dapat bertahan untuk beberapa ketika waktu ini. :)

Sunday
Just lazying around at home. Keluar sekejap beli makanan. Seronoknya now dh banyak makanan dalam bilik *big grin*

Last night, when I asked a friend "what do u think of the movie?"
My friend replied: "I wanna be a vegetarian la after this. haha."

Why? Tengok dulu Ninja Assassin, then you'll know :).
Oklah, nak merajinkan diri mensidai baju yang sungguh banyak. Bye!

Another Junior in The Family :)

Remember I told you about kakak yg telah safely gave birth to a 3.7kg baby girl?

Mommy, I think Im drooling. Please please wipe it..Mommy, why is it still there? Please get the drool off my face..I wont look nice with it =pOk now, lets sing together...Lalalalala~..Mommy..tiba tiba I tertidur pula..=pMommy, why am I so tiny? When can I get bigger?Hi little sister..Im myra, your big sister..Hi hi hi hi..Im nice btw

Baby: Mommy, I forgot to ask. Is kakak Myra nice? Im afraid if she'll be bullying me or bite my fingers later on.
Mommy: Dont worry dear, Kakak Myra is only 1 year and 11 months but Im sure she'll be nice to you. She kept saying to you "Bibi..bibi.."
Baby: But mommy..the picture you showed me the other day..Kakak Myra looked..ermm..ermm..erm..never mind la mommy


So my 2nd niece still nameless. Kakak and the rest masih cari nama yg elok dan sesuai for the baby. Any suggestions?

Serangan Perut, Sorry Main Kasar.

ok, tonight's futsal training turned out bad.
I had a friendly match with this one team. Most of them are tomboys! Those yang rambut pendek, well-trimmed.
Main kasar, I fell down. Terbaring aku dibuatnye.
Kaki banyak kali kena sepak.
Bola yg ditendang terkena perutku. Sakitnya, macam nak muntah but terpaksa tahan sepanjang match.

Honestly, I was annoyed. Pissed off juga sebab mereka sungguh kasar weh.
Nak compare dengan team ku yg sungguh feminine itu, memang jauh beza lah. Takde lah feminine ayu bagai, but at least kami tak lah sekasar itu. Agak agak la kan, this is not EPL ma.

However, undeniably the opponents memang tangkas dan lincah bermain.

Tu je credit untuk mereka.
Bila dah abes match, macam biasa bersalam-salam.

Yang tak boleh belah bila sorang ni (memang paling kasar), salam tangan aku sambil berkata:
"Sorry main kasar."
Aku rasa macam funny but at the same time macam dot dot dot sikit. Haha.

No comment.
Oklah korang, esok MAKSAK Games (among Swakians) akan mula.
Kalau team aku menang, aku rasa itu rezeki. Atau pun miracle.
Goodnyte!

Si Kancil dan Si City

First and foremost, ni bukan kisah sang Kancil dan Buaya ya. Bukan juga kisah Kancil dan City Nurhasliza. Haha.
Oh ya.
Kau orang tahu kan, recently aku selalu pergi futsal training?
So one day (night), me and Jannah macam biasa lah keluar nak pergi futsal training, drove a kancil. Since both of us belum punya kereta, maka kami pinjam dulu kereta housemate.

Sampai saja Kidurong Futsal Centre, cepat-cepat cari car park.
Tiba-tiba nampak someone with her car, parked her car just right beside our kancil. Ceh, perasan macam kereta sendiri.
Oh, she's the technician in my department.

We went:
"Hi.."

She replied:
"Hi..".

Aku senyum sengih bila tengok kereta dia.
A shiny Honday City lah.
Bling bling mata aku tengok kereta dia.
Aku dan Jannah naik apa malam tu?
A perodua kancil saja and both of us are the new engineers. Haha.
Dahla kancil, pinjam kereta orang lagi.

Ironi nya, bila di office aku lah boss. Tapi bila di luar office aku hanya lah seorang engineer baru yg tak punya kereta pun. Technician aku pula pakai Honda City you. Haha =p

Kesian, ni lah kisah orang tak punya kereta lagi.

=p

Korang rasa, kereta apa yg bes ek? Aku tak ada plan lagi nk beli kereta apa. Company dh provide bus pergi kerja hari-hari, malas pula nak fikir bab bab kereta.

Title-Less =)

Good Morning! Woke up late this morning. Why? Sebab lepas subuh at 510am I tidur balik. Padan dengan wajahku. Haha. Need to catch up a bus at 655am. Bila lambat, memang tak sempat nak iron shirt and my trousers. Sempat iron tudung sahaja, hence the coverall to work.

Last night, yesterday was a happy day. Praise to the Almighty.
Things that put smiles on my face were:

1. My sister has safely gave birth to a baby girl weighted 3.7kg. Normal delivery, relief.
2. After almost 2 days without any news, Encik Sayang finally called and we chatted on YM. That's more than enough, at least I can hear from him. Miss you, mydear..:)
3. Another Sheffield mate got a job in Bintulu too! The same company as mine! Hehe excited terlebih ni apesal ? =p. So now ada 2 sheffield graduates yang akan kerja denganku di Bintulu. Yey! Super YEY! hehe.
4. At night chilled out with Jannah and Anith. Had kuetiaw kerang and honey dew juice, Yummy!
5. A fully-occupied day with works and I love it! Agak penat, sampai tertidur dalam bus on the way pulang ke rumah.

Oklah, I need to have rest. At 8pm ada futsal training.

I was trying to look at the bright side of the 6 hrs time diference and the distance. i found it, bit by bit. ;)