I Saw Your Face In a Crowded Place

"I saw an angel::Of that I'm sure.::She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

I saw your face in a crowded place::And I don't know what to do::'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,::As we walked on by.::And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,::When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you"
-James Blunt

The times we had will be memories. Still have months to share and cherish the moments.
As you said, Allah has a plan for us. Remember that Allah is the Best Planner?

Worry not, he'll be nice to me.

Shoot Me 'Cause I Killed Someone

Hari ini sepatutnya hari gembira.
tapi..

Badan lemah..

Mata berpinar..

Aku pekup muka dengan kedua tanganku..
Aku tunduk..
Tekak rasa kelat..pahit..
Badan menahan getar..
pipi terasa panas..
basah..

Aku rasa kalah bila apa yang kau katakan itu boleh diterima logiknya, ada betulnya. Aku salah tapi aku terima dan setuju.
Aku rasa kagum bila aku terpaksa bersetuju dengan apa sahaja arahanmu; kerna mereka kebanyakannya betul.
Aku janji (jarang aku berjanji)..
Akan ku turut semua kemahuanmu yang benar selepas ini..
Beri aku masa ya..


*shoot me 'cause I killed someone*

"Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada Mu
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau ku kutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit Mu
Namun cinta tak kan hadir
Namun rindu takkan ber bunga

Ku cuba menghulurkan
Sebuah hadiah kepada Mu
Tapi mungkin kerana isinya
Tidak sempurna tiada seri

Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada Mu
Moga ku tahu
Syukur ku hanyalah milik Mu"

"Can You Call Me Back?"

Now is March and to think of what's lying ahead shivered me. Well classes went well, now Im pushing myself to do journals review. Erghh..nasib baik lah project aku memang interesting-Multi-Touch Table for Image Manipulation. Macam cool lah bila aku kena do research on such talk-of-the-town brands seperti Apple iPhone, Mitsubishi DiamondTouch, Perceptive Pixel by JF Han, TouchSmart PC by HP, SmartSkin by Sony, Microsoft Surface, and macam-macam brands lagi. This project macam kena dengan interest aku-Gadgets!
ok, enough about projects.

Yeah last month i've got some good news lah. Remember the interview i attended last November? My first serious job interview ever! I think I mentioned it in this post.
Yeah, aku faham lah kalau kau tak baca post tuh sebab masa tu aku privatekan blog aku. Why ha? Aku mahu privasi mungkin, yeah i needed that (sekarang pun aku masih perlu kadang-kadang). Aku dah beritau reasonnya, koreklah archive kalau rajin. haha.

Alhamdulillah after waiting for about 3 months, the company emailed me and said that i passed the interview. I got recommended, balik Malaysia perlu lapor diri pada mereka. Position apa? Location mana? Itu belum pasti, tunggu aje lah nanti mereka beritahu. Aku harap mereka tak campak aku dalam hutan atau pulau-pulau. haha. Tapi mommy sudah cakap, sementara masih muda dan single, accept je offer tu. Yeah, you're right mom. I need to be far apart from u guys lagi kan? Personally, I want to work in KL. Kalau dapat KLCC lagi heaven kan kan kan? gagaga..
Okey lah, ape-ape pun aku sangat bersyukur dengan interview result tu. Nampaknya my first shot menjadi. Tak sia-sia aku pergi London sorang-sorang, hampir pengsan kebosanan dalam en-suit room di Malaysian Hall tu. Sorang-sorang jugak aku terkebil-kebil cari hotel tempat interview tu. Nervous? Ada la jugak..who doesnt kan? Interview lah babe..tapi masa interview tu tidak lah nervous mana sebab aku rasa I was just being myself. Orang tanya, kita jawap lah kan? Cuma otak la, kene ligat berfikir sikit. Interview tu sejam setengah. Boleh tahan lah otak aku macam berpusing-pusing cari jawapan haha. Dengan handbag aku terjatuh sekejap time tuh, tapi tak apa, kita chill lah. gagaga..
Lagi apa ya mahu share dengan you guys about the interview? Aku pun sudah hampir lupa, ya lah. Dah almost 4 bulan kan. If any just ask me lah, I would give my best to share. hehe.

Another good news is from my cousin, Amalina. She was excellently got 9As in her SPM. 8A1, 1A2. good job girl! ;)

Oh yeah, apart from that, I also applied for other companies. ExxonMobil contohnya. yeah kawan-kawan as we all know, ExxonMobil akan call secara mengejut kan di awal pagi, around 9ish. Ada kawan aku dapat call masa dia tengah enak tidor di hujung minggu.

dengan suara mamai, jawap call Exxon:

"Can u call me back?"

haha. ye lah what do u expect kan awal pagi Sabtu. Nasib baik Exxon call balik.
As for me, Exxon called me awal pagi juga. Masa aku tengah seronok gumbira dengar lagu kuat-kuat. Lepas mula lah terus paksa otak berfikir nak jawap soklan-soklan tipikal seperti:
" Tell me about yourself"
"Why ExxonMobil"

haha..no comment lah.

Apa-apa pun, harap aku dapat kerja idaman, Kereta idaman, Rumah cantik di lokasi idaman yang tenang, Suami idaman serta anak-anak comel yang akan jadi sepupu kepada cotton candy aku-Myra Lisya. gagaga..impian murni kan? ;)

Sekarang perlu kerja keras untuk dapat result cemerlang, live life to the fullest. weyh, I started to miss UK lah. Nanti mesti rasa macam ni kan bila pulang ke Malaysia?


"Dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you"

The Reasons

oh yeah, recently we faced this kinda complicated phase.
I made mistakes u said, i did apologize but i know, too much apologies annoyed u aite? ur sick of my apologies, I asked for ur forgiveness and i still did that, over and over again.
u said im stubborn, i didn listen to u and i admit that (sometimes).

you,
looking at my last 2 months' bills has changed almost everything. I must save my HSBC so that i will feel secured and you know how much i need that. Yes, u called me and u always did. Thanks for that. But the fact that i need to keep topping up my skype also hurts my HSBC. u know that im saving money-to buy a car, to survive my life in Msia once i get back for good. er..in 4 months time?

you,
oh yeah..just to make myself busy so that i wont think of u that much anymore. thought i could give u space so that we could reduce the cost. to make things better, i bought more books, i spent more time with friends, i decided to buy a musical instrument, i learned to play guitar (sikit-sikit), i decided to get myself an Ipod which i think i could not afford it or maybe it's just a waste for me. i would rather use my old+cacat a bit 512mb Creative mp3 player. dah buruk kan, calar-calar, tempat batery dah ada patah sikit.

you,
u said that i have changed. which part of me changed? pipi i memang makin chubby, yes i accept that. ok, u said i paid less attention to u, u said i just do not care that much anymore. really? i did not realise that, maybe because of the environment or maybe the past has taught me not to be that kind of person anymore. if u know what i mean. im pretty sure u know me well, u know shits i went through. one more thing, once u said i kept complaining about things. even small matters bother me. well, maybe it's due to distance. maybe i was seeking attention from u. u know how good i was when ur around? it's different. now, that's why i reduced my complaints. less attention seeking=less complaints=wondered u

you,
you are just a great man for me. yes you are. why?

1. because u always there for me. u listened to all my ramblings day and night. u never get bored. u understand how hurt it was when i had to hear the almost-divorce thingy. at that time, i know you have been the best buddy and lover.
2. because u will always call me back when we had fight/argument. u know how to stop my tears. u would not mind to wake up at 3 in the morning to listen to my ramblings.
   

you,
but i cant stand it when u get mad at me. yes, maybe i triggered the anger but please, dont say those words to me. for this part im sure i have changed. when ur mad, i would just listen to you, i would argue less, but mommy said jangan kasi muke sangat, nnt kene pijak kepala. hurmm.. i need to agree with mommy for some circumtances.

you,
u see that i made the effort when i gave u that little surprise. u liked it, u were speechless. we felt great at that time:)
however, one thing upset me. the card i sent u, it didn reach you. that was not the first time.
u still remember those letters i wrote to u? in order to cut the cost, i cant call u that often anymore, hence i wrote u letters. whenever i feel like talking to you, i will write one. ermm..maybe one letter per day. or maybe just a short note. after for a bout a month doing that, i compiled the letters and posted it to you..but u know..U DIDN GET THE LETTERS. u didn receive them. i cant say anything other than giving a sigh, a big SIGH. who's to blame huh? Post Malaysia kah? i know, their services sucks jugak la at times.

you,
u said we have changed. we were not arguing or fighting over stupid things like before. we grew up, im sure of that. yes, it's good but the fact that less attention for each other has worried u.




you,
im sorry (again). just hanging there. u made up ur mind, decisions made.

take care.

*writings are bad, banyak short form gaya penulisan malas, bahasa tunggang langgang, biarkan mereka.*

Bila Tersengguk-sengguk dalam Kelas Adalah Perkara Biasa

okeh, aku akan delete entry ni nanti.
sejak semalam aku mengantuk dalam kelas. aku rasa dah tahap tersengguk-sengguk dalam kelas. hurghh..dalam tahun ni, semalam kali pertama aku mengantuk dan tersengguk-sengguk dalam kelas okeh! aku macam terseksa sikit sebab cant help yawning dan tulisan dah jadi cakar kucing. ggrrr

lagi bengkek bila aku balik rumah, hilang trus mengantuk tapi kepala dah mintak bantal. aku tak faham apsal bila dah rasa nak lena dalam kelas,tapi bila balik rumah aku segar sikit tapi sebenarnya aku perlu tidur. tapi tapi still aku tak boleh lena di bilik.

hari ni kelas analogue 2 jam, aku mengantuk lagi. damn.
aku rasa teruk ok, serius rasa nak pegi toilet during the lecture but toilet macam jauh.
maka aku agak terseksa lagi untuk kelas 2 jam tadi.

hey hey, sekarang aku perlu tidur sekejap okeh. next class is at 4pm. warrghh kelas petang memang siksa ok, aku nak kelas pagi!!

aku harap aku sihat, pulang dari kelas tadi hujan lebat, dengan slumbernye aku redah hujan, habis basah. tahniah..tahniah

-nap-

Perempuan Gemuk & Kucing Malas

sila lihat pipi perempuan jaket pink itu, pipi nya gemok, kaki juga besar. suka kucing pula. ish ish

hari ni cuaca bagus juga, just like yesterday. i consider this to be a bad thing about me: aku senang dipengaruh oleh cuaca. cuaca baik as in sunny day, sun shine through my window, maka mood aku pun bertambah-tambah baik. bad thing la kan sebab sepatutnye mood itu sendiri yang perlu control. alah, tapi tak kritikal pun pengaruh cuaca terhadap aku ;)

mari cerita sedikit tentang semalam. Aidil got a guest from Worcester, Afta. so before balik telah ada sesi fotografi versi kanak-kanak riang di Springfield. i bumped into a very cute boy name Hafiey. haha..

Ini Hafiey. beliau ialah kanak-kanak comel. lihatlah, dia melambai-lambai tangan.

i like him so much and he will turn 2 this saturday. i hope his mommy (kak yati) will invite me to come over to a so-called birthday party (haha tidak malu;p). ape ape pun sila lihat gambar semalam. more pictures are available now on FB and fotopages.;)

cerita hari ini. i just realised that the last time i called omma was last week. I MISS them terribly. like..rindu rindu sangat. homesick sampai rasa tidak seronok. rindu kamu juga..:(..
well..me and cenad were gossiping dan berangan-angan tentang plan-plan gembira once aku balik Malaysia nanti. antara angan-angan-yang-kunun-kunun-banyak-duit adalah: A Trip to Korea!! wah, boleh lah jumpa Rain kan? haha. aku tahu Cenad suka Hyun Bin, omma pula suka Kwong San Woo. omma, i hope the spelling was correct;p
Angan ke-2 adalah untuk membelanja Cenad makanan Korea di Korea Garden (if im not mistaken, nama kedai tu memang korea garden). eh ..itu angan-angan Cenad lah kan, untuk mempow aku makan..hehe
antara ayat favourite Cenad ketika mengorder makanan bila aku yang belanja ialah:
"Kak lang, confirm kan hang belanja? kan? kan?" *sambil mata mengerling pada menu makanan yang sedap dan agak mahal*
bila aku kata Ya, dia beri senyum yang buat poket aku kempis.

ish ish..i just noticed that i laughed a lot in this entry. ssyhhh..which explains how happy I am now ;)

ok peeps, gotta cook for lunch.

later

Ini Basi, Tapi Masih Boleh Jadi Segar

7 years back..prefects yang paling..er..breaking the rules? hehe
standing from LEFT: Lyan, Afinas, K zhali, Nad, Fatin, Ajat, Azima (Nama lakonan: Swee Lan)
Sitting from LEFT: Azwa (Aman), Ina, CT Azwa, Hani, Z.

Aku selalunya tiada semasa proses perjumpaan beramai-ramai, gathering

Summer di Malaysia= gathering, futsal, bergossip. haha

sedikit updates tentang ex-Sultan Mohd Jiwa's:

Officially taken, Tied The Knot (Married):

1. Che Yan
2. Nashitah
3. Farahiyah with a baby
4. Azah with a baby
5. Soddiqa
6. Shazlin Elaiza (Jaja)
7. KingKing's WeddingJaja's WeddingThe only wedding I attended: Nashitah's
   

Engaged :

1. Lyan
   

sorry, ini je list yang aku ada. sapa tahu sila update lagi okeh?

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever) -

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
(Takper, tahun ni baru 24. Eh next year ok, i will turn 25. dem)
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track (yes we are)


Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money (sila update CV anda dan submit it to the UKEC careers fair. haha)
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny? (no it wont be)
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule (break the rules, fly pergi town malam-malam. warden marah)

Sengaja dan Mengada-ngada

malam weekend selalunya ada sedikit unsur rehat. (padahal kerja menimbun timbun ja).
satu conversation yang buat hati aku robek sedikit.

"kalau la saya ada duit, Isnin ni jugak saya buat passport and beli tiket pegi sane"

tipikal bunyi nya kan.

tapi aku tahu dia maksudkannya. aku tahu kalau dia mampu memang dia buat, jadi terserah.

itu kalaulah, kalaulah. sebab itu hanya kalaulah buat aku perit. pedih. buat aku sakit.

aku rasa aku perlu 'ubat' itu kembali. bekalan makin habis, aku perlu ia. harap-harap sempat lah sebelum tiba waktu.

ya, tiada orang faham apa aku rasa. aku bukanlah sengaja nak mengada-ngada meminta begitu.
kali ini aku memang perlu, aku sudah tak sanggup jadi kunun-kunun kuat. tak sanggup pura-pura tabah. tak sanggup hipokrit sorok air mata aku.

kepada yang memahami, terima kasih. kepada yang pernah lihat dan tahu, kalian sudah faham kan?

maaf, tadi ada unsur emosi. tak sanggup dah simpan, aku perlu letupkan gunung berapi ini untuk seketika.

• tapi kamu, aku selalu ingat pesan kamu walau kamu kata aku ini degil juga kadang-kadang.
• aku perlu kuat kan, kamu selalu pesan ini.
• aku perlu kurangkan rasa tak puas hati itu dan perlu bersyukur atas apa yang ada. kadang-kadang apa yang kita ada itu adalah impian orang lain dan mereka tak memilikinya. tapi jangan pula kita nak cemburui benda yang bukan milik kita. kan? rezki masing-masing, yer dak?
• kamu kata aku perlu jaga makan minum, nanti lagi kurus.
• kamu kata kalau aku rasa sudah boring dengan kerja harian, pergilah keluar ambil angin atau pergi beli-belah. (ini nasihat paling digemari)
• kamu kata lagi, jangan lupa senyum hari-hari. hehe. aku suka lah;)
• kamu kata juga, kalau kita cakap di telefon tak perlu buang duit, mahal kan. jadi cakap yang penting saja. (aku sedih part ni)
  

itu antara nasihat kamu yang sedang ada dalam kepala aku sekarang.

kamu, aku harap urusan kita dipermudahkan.

selamat malam semua

Endless Friendship? Tipu lah

Today, this week supposed to be my happy week. i knew some things yippie yippie.
Ok, lets put them aside.
I just got back from my badminton session with Vivian. And yes, someone suddenly turned up which has dramatically surprised me. Hehe. Thanks :)
After the badminton session I talked to Vivian and we were gossiping like there's no tomorrow. oh yes I love talking to her, we just have things to talk about.
Actually this is not the point. Yes, its been a while since I last talked to her. We both busy with..er..academic life?
This semester is my last semester here in Sheffield.
I dont know, but I'm sure I will miss the moment I had here.
Syyhh...lets not talk about what happened in the first year I was here. haha..bukan ape, once i started telling you, you wouldn't want to listen to my looooooonnnnggggggg story. Bukan bes pun.

Well I think I miss some people. Some people I used to be close to. Some people I used to share my ups and downs. Some people I used to lean on their shoulders and cry. sobsob.
Why I miss them? Yes because now they are no longer here, no longer close to me. No longer be my shoulder to cry on. They are just...not here anymore :|

Where are they now? They still alive..but we no longer talk like we always did. We no longer share the same stories, we no longer laugh at the same jokes. I dont think we have anything in common, anymore. hurmm..

I thought we can be friends for another 5 years, or for-ever. ever ever. We are not. I believe, people do change.
I must admit that I do change at times. Because of the changes, we cant be the person we used to be. The chemistry is not there anymore.

Hence I dont believe in "Friendship Never Ends". Tipulah.
Yes, bila dah lama kawan, masing-masing dah ada hala tuju masing-masing. Masing-masing dah ada prioriti dalam hidup. Sampai lupa nak update dengan kawan-kawan. Boleh je contact each other tapi rasa tu dah tak sama walaupun kita sudah puas mencuba. Tidak sama, sangat susah. Kadang-kadang kita akan cipta suasana macam dulu, tapi perasaan tu dah hilang.

Itu lah kadang-kadang kita perlu move on, mula hidup baru, kenal orang baru, jumpa kawan baru. Nanti kitaran itu akan datang lagi, mencipta cerita yang sama. Mungkin dengan itu kita lagi banyak tersenyum :)

Oklah, aku dah merepek.
buhbye..

Such A Nice British

Oh well today i tried to wear my new shoes. My first black and formal shoes ever. Rupenye boleh tahan, muncung tirus di hadapan. Pegi kelas dgn kasut baru. End up dengan kaki melecet yang teruk. Lepas abes kelas terus bergegas pulang, namun di tgh jalan aku singgah di library kerna Han mahu pulangkan buku (aku pulang ke rumah bersama Han). At that time kaki mmg dah melecet teruk, merah dan hampir berdarah kakiku. Aku jalan bagai orang kurang upaya. Sambil menunggu Han di depan library entrance, aku keluarkan kaki kananku (yg melecet) dari kasut dan aku angkat sedikit kakiku. Suddenly..there's a man tegur aku:

Man: are u alright there?
Z: oh not really..*sambil aku menunjuk ke arah kaki ku*
Man: oh..that's bad..do you want me to get you a plaster or something? I can ask the library staffs inside.
Z: oh yes please..*aku senyum..*

Aku mengekor lelaki baik itu ke dalam library. Dia sibuk bertanya kepada para petugas library samada mereka ada first aid kit. yey! ade!
2 minit kemudian aku lihat lelaki baik keluar membawa plaster dan sesuatu yg extra.

Man: i got you 2 plasters and a wipe. You can wipe it and clean it then u can use the plaster..that's all i can get..hope you're ok with that *ujarnya sambil senyum*
Z: oh thank you very much..it's more than enough, thanks. *aku senyum penuh berterima kasih*

lelaki itu sungguh baik. Aku suka British begitu. :) Marilah kita contohi lelaki begitu. Lelaki melayu bila lagi? hehe.

* 3 posts in a day. superb*

A Beautiful Lie. A Perfect Denial

i think someone lied to me today. hide something from me.
not telling the truth.
i told myself that i cannot trust you.
you are sweet, nice but you can be dangerous sometimes.
why suddenly you're back.
but don't worry. i will keep your secrets.
as requested, i wont forget u.

ah .
ape-ape la labu.

Angan

hari ni saya tak keluar. mahu ke shopping mall tapi tiada barang mahu dibeli. ah..mana semangat shopping ku dulu?

saya tonton filem inggeris. the last kiss. agak menarik. romantic comedy. tapi ada juga sedih. aparaa..

saya telah berjaya menjernihkan kembali situasi saya dan my little someone. sungguh lega..
akan tatapi harus la bebaskan dia untuk sebahagian dari waktu siang saya kerna dia mahu tonton bola. MU-Arsengal. ops..kata nya mahu lihat MU gulung tikar. as u wish my dear..hehe

biarlah dia gembira dgn dunia bolanya..tak perlu saya halang. asal dia gembira.
saya buat kerja-kerja rumah. cuci baju tapi bibik washing machine yg buat ;p.
saya susun kasut yg berlambak.
saya cuci pinggan.
saya plan nak masak Ayam black pepper tonight. nyum nyum. mahu letak capsicum kah potato kah?

oh ya..entah mengapa hari ini sangat rindu Malaysia..semua org saya rindu. keluarga di kampung. eccehh...;p..
saya telefon kakak (mama Alisya..)..rindunya saya si comel itu..gewam..gewam..
rindu juga pada adikku yg bumbum ;p..Cenad. dia sibuk dengan peperiksaan barangkali. dia hanya tegur saya di YM bila ada sesuatu. sobsob..mungkin dia tak sayang saya kan
rindu pada abang juga...:(
saya juga telefon ibu saya di kala malam Msia.. ibu tidur awal kerana letih uruskan hal kenduri nenek yg mahu ke Mekah..

jadi anganku: mahu pulang sebentar ke Malaysia di hujung minggu. gila kan. biarlah ini angan saya, bukan kamu ;)


mahu ke kedai beli makanan..
jumpa lagi:)

lalalala...

Hari Ini

hari ni..

• aku ade kelas 9-1. on the way ke kelas aku ternampak ex-lab partner aku, si E yg annoying. aku tak sedar dia di belakangku. dia menyelitkan kakinya untuk buat ku jatuh. jahatnya!. aku buat muka bengang lantas berkata:

" E, awal2 pagi janganlah kacau orang!" -sudah dialih bahasa untuk kemudahan awam.

• E tetap buat muka selamba. nyampah!. so pagi tu terpaksa ke kelas dgn budak annoying. ggrrrrrr

• dalam kelas bergosip-gosip dgn vivian. dahla kami minoriti tapi tetap bergosip dalam kelas tanpa pedulikan para lelaki di kelas. mereka paham perangai perempuan mungkin. vivian gemar lihat lip gloss ku. dia merungut lip gloss nya tak tahan lama..ropa-ropanya dia guna Vaseline! hakhak aku ketawa. dia suka lip gloss ku dan minta aku bawa ke kelas nanti. macam-macam la vivian nih..aku layankan aja..
  

• then pukul 2-4 ade bengkel "Problem Solving" oleh syarikat gah UK, Rolls Royce. sungguh bermanfaat. anjuran oleh Career Service. seronok juga kerana aku dapat jumpa dengan ramai orang especially those from other departments..yerla..hari2 aku jumpe dgn engineering students je..like today i met students from various departments; psychology, medicine, geography, english literature, law etc..(aku tak berapa igt sbb ramai juge). we were divided into 5 groups. each group ade 5-6 students. kami kene buat presentation. even group aku tak menang presentation tapi aku puas hati sbb kami enjoy dgn tasks yg diberi. aku dan group aku mcm dah lame kenal sbb boleh get along well..eccehh..;p..plus, ade sorang ni dari group lain die ckp patutnye group aku yg menang presentation tu sbb paling entertaining. yes i admit it hehe..tapi takpela, tak penting pun. paling utama ialah apa yg aku dapat dari program tu. aku ade lagi 2 prog to attend utk dapat 1 certificate-SKILLS FOR SUCCESS
  
• after the program, i talked to this 1 system engineer. he graduated from Sheffield Univ last year. rupenye die Malaysian. great la..ade Msian di Rolls Royce.
  
• balik rumah aku terima text dari Matt (project group mate). kene add some extra points for our report. esok kene anta. huarggh..dahla penat tapi aku gagahi jua mencari idea dan menulis. aku email padanya report ku.
• aku order spagethi dan chicken kebab. TAK SEDAP!!!!!!! dahla mahal! tsk tsk.
  
• makanan tak habis. what a waste!
  

sekarang aku perlu rehat. menulis sambil bersandar bagai perempuan debab.
kamu tolong jangan kacau ya..
ZzzZzzzz.......

"Wanna Haf My Babies?"

i had 2 classes today. 11-1pm.
i was shocked by this one little incident in my class.
as i entered my class i saw this one guy. a British guy. let's name him E (bukan name sebenar ;p)
well E was actually my lab partner. we were quite close.
he smiled at me. i replied his smile.
and suddenly he asked me..

E: when are u gonna haf my babies?

i murmured to myself in bahasa melayu. "erks..gilo apo tny aku dlm kelas soklan cenggituh"
mase tuh aku tgk Joe and this one other british guy sengih-sengih kt aku..ah sudah..ape nk jawap nih..
aku buat-buat cool sajer..sedangkan dalam hati dah pecah sbb tatau nk jawap ape.

Z: ouh..when..

belom sempat aku abeskan ayat..he went..

E: about half an hour..i wanna see how intelligent our babies can be.

dan dialog seterusnyer tak usahlah dihuraikan lagi kerna aku pn tak sanggup nak swallow..

that's E, my ex-lab partner. actually that was not the first time die buat joke begitu kat aku. dulu die text but now die ckp dlm kelas ok. melampau lah E nih!
all i know is i was malu gile dalam kelas tadi. aku dah merepek-repek kt elly dalam bahasa melayu tahu..not much i could do other than duduk diam-diam..jangan pandang belakang sbb die duduk belakang aku hari ni. gile lah die. ergh..

so the point here is: just get ready for anything coming out from your British buddies:)

Yahoo Messenger

Yahoo messenger..
beberapa fakta tentang aku dan YM.

• aku bukan suke sgt YM ni. tetambah pule kalo aku letak bz sign with "BUSY" status. ade plak org yang mungkin tak paham..tegur aku. tegur pulak bukan sbb nk tny bende penting tapi tny "buat ape tu..dah makan ke..ape crite.." argh..even if nk tny pun kan..straight to the point jer ok..
  
• aku tak berapa suke layan org yg jarang YM ngn aku..tak tau sgt ape jadi kat aku..sbb the conversation will be slow as they have so many things to ask me..boring ok..last-last aku suro jer derang bace blog aku..kire ini la update aku kan..
• dulu org salu ckp YM status aku mcm-mcm..or mungkin pelik..ala korang..sometimes itu hanya lirik lagu mungkin..and i must admit that ade jugak status YM yg refleks feeling ku ketika itu..
  
• aku tak berape prefer dgn org yg YM ngn aku tapi appear offline..ntah la..bagi aku, nk YM ngn aku appear online la, even kt aku sorang je;p..and FYI, YM list aku ramai, hence aku hanya display online contacts..sory.
• aku tak prefer juge kalo aku ckp aku tgh up to something-makan, buat kje..tapi still nak urge aku YM dgn die..hello..aku dh ckp kot aku ade something nak buat..if aku reply lmbt tu aku mmg ade bnde nk buat..tolong lah faham..
• kalau aku ade free time and i feel like chatting with people, dun worry sbb aku sendiri dgn willing nye tegur orang lain..friendly..friendly..
• aku juge tak prefer bile org tu yer yer je tegur aku ..tetibe nak slow slow plak chat..reply lambat..etc..siap pi makan dlu la..tah pepe..
• aku tak suke orang yg letak status yg puzzle people..yg buat orang tertanya-tanya..tapi bile orang tny apekah..die tanak ckp..not trying to be penyebok but hey..bile kawan ko tulis cmtuh mesti ko nak tau kan..obviously. tapi nape bile orang tny tanak jwp..kalo nk secret sgt no need to display it publicly la..unless u are seeking for attention. kan?
• aku tak kisah dgn orang orang yg letak status yg berbaur PDA. janji korang happy..:)
  

so Ym ni bukan bes sgt pun bagiku..unless ko ade citer bes ke..bende penting ke..emergency ke..

adios..

::Misteri Broomhall (Eps 1)::

lokasi: 80 Brunswick


di bumi sheffield ni aku tinggal di kawasan Broomhall. ramai msian tinggal di sini. aku ingin berkongsi satu pengalaman yg ku kira pelik. lokasinya di rumah ku sendiri, 80 Brunswick st.
rumah ku 3 tingkat. bilikku di tingkat 3.
sebenarnya bende plik ni dah lame aku alami tapi aku lebih prefer buat tak tau. malas nak kecoh-kecoh.
ape yg pliknye ek. mybe korang hairan.
cmni..every week..dalam 2 kali seminggu, aku akan terdengar bunyi pelik dari siling bilikku. korang byg kan, bilikku sudah tingkat 3, ada lagi kah bilik di atas bilik ku?bukankah bumbung rumah saje?ah, itu bukan soal utama.
back to the topic, pasal bunyi plik yg aku kerap dengar.
dalam 2 kali seminggu (hari kejadian aku tak hafal sbb malas pk sgt)..aku akan dengar satu suara lelaki menangis teresak-esak. mmg nangis yg beriyer-riyer..it's more to meratap-ratap (weeping). lepas bunyi tangisan, aku akan dgr pule bunyi katil bergoncang. kuat bunyi tu. bunyi ini berlarutan hingga kira-kira 20 minit.
first time aku dengar, aku boleh trime. tapi masalahnye bunyi-bunyi ni aku dah dgr sejak aku berpindah masuk ke rumah ni lagi.
plus, bunyi-bunyi tu akan berulang every week. mcm sudah di tentukan waktu dan harinye. waktu kejadian adalah dalam waktu petang..duration pun lebih kurang, tak pernah terlalu lame dan sekejap. pelik kan?

Persoalannya:

1. sape yg tinggal kt atas bilik aku ni? aku penah dgr yg atas bilikku ade satu bilik yg bersambungan dgn rumah landlady aku. entah betol entah tidak, tiada bukti sahih.
2. sape lelaki yg menangis itu? kenape die menangis? mengapa tangisannye seperti same saje pattern/caranya?
3. mengapa mesti ade bunyi katil bergoncang semasa die menangis?
   
4. mengapa durationnya lebih kurang same je everytime bende ni jadi?

selame ni aku dgr sorang2 and i kept it to myself. pernah juge tny pade housemate yg lain (jihan-dah pindah )..tapi jhan mcm tak berapa berminat nk amek tau..
tapi since ari ni aku dgr bunyi tu bersama Han (new housemate), aku rasa aku ptt persoal kembali apa yg aku alami selama ni.

my lil sister Cenad was concern enough to ask many Quest about this matter.
She worried about me i can tell u.
tapi ade plak die buat spekulasi yg pelbagai..

cenad: laki ke pompuan yg nanges?tah tah org gile..bahaye weh..kang die buat ngamuk2 plak..mintak simpang la..
z : yg nanges tu laki..
cenad:ang dah tny ka tuan rumah ang?
z: haa..masalahnye rumah tu mungkin bersambung dgn rumah landlady aku..takut tak? (haha)
cenad: isk ni yg lagi takut ni..seram gile..tah tah gile..mak die ikat kt katil..tu yg goyang-goyang katil tu..nak lepaskan ikatan..mcm org gile..
z: oh cenad..ur freaking me out...!!
cenad: mana la tau..org mukan islam ni kurang pertimbangan sket..bese la tak semayang..(haha part ni aku gelak kott..)
z: huhu..seram weh..sian tak kt aku..nampak je rileks selame ni kan..kehkeh..

-end-
FYI, last winter holiday, aku tinggal dlm rumah ni sorang2 ok..for 2-3 weeks..sbb org lain semua pegi bercuti..aku kan keje mase tu..bile pk balik, syukur lah tader ape2 yg buruk jadi kt aku..berani juge ye aku ni..elly cakap aku tabah..:)


haa..ini baru sikit..misteri di Broomhall..
mugkin lepas ni kite akan dgr citer dari rumah lain?
(hahahah..elly marah ni babe..) die ade ngn aku mase aku tulis ni..cuak cuak dah die..kehkeh..rumah die lagi seram..byk version woo...~ aku ade gak tau 2 version, tapi kesian kt die..heavy sgt citer tuh..so tak perlu citer lg kt die

fyi, sekarang ni elly ade ngn aku..die dah takut nk g toilet umh aku..die nk balik umah pn takut..;p

okla.nk buat keje..bertimbun..workloads mounting like hell..phew..~

gtg.

xoxo