Im In Malaysia !!

yuhuuu!!! finally..dah sampai Malaysia..
and banyak bende baru yg aku kene treasure..one thing in mind aite now is: MY NIECE!

first time i saw her..i think she was damn cute! now die dah 5 bulan..gigi bawah die baru tumbuh 2 batang haha..cute giler ok..here's some pics of her..
ok peeps..
im waiting for another arrival from egypt. it is supposed to be a surprise actually:)..only kakak, abg kerol and omma je yg tau surprise ni..:) my little brother is coming back too!!!:)

later :)

Leaving on A Jet Plane..

hi people..
im leaving tonite..
doakan saya dan han selamat..
since recently i heard orang2 di airport sumer dah strict pasal berat2 luggage nih so im quite worried..

train ke Manchester Airport pukul 411pm..

gudbye loves..

dont miss me hikhik..mmuuacchss!!~~

Dia Datang Lagi..

Morning peeps..i just woke up..last nite i went to bed early..as early as 12am. awal la kan untuk insan yang tgh cuti dan xde keje ni hehe..

tgh pagi pagi tadi (around 220am..) aku dikejutkan dgn satu panggilan. to be honest i was shocked with the call.

alhamdulillah..doa aku terjawab..aku bersyukur ..terharu..

then tibe2 rase perut sgt pedih (dh lame tak komen pasal my tummy hehe)..pedih dan berbunyi..nak turun bwah ke dapur tapi mase tu jam menunjukkan pukul 3pg..FYI, bilik aku terletak di tingkat 3. jadi bayangkan lah betapa reluctant nyer aku untuk turun dan makan..3am in the morning..i dun think so..is my gastric coming again??? urgh..

today is friday..yey!! my flight is tomorrow..8pm @ Manchester Airport..sgt excited! tiket train untuk ke airport dh beli..dalam 5pm sabtu gitu train ke Manchester Airport..sgt excited..yey!

btw, my lil sis (Cenad yang kurang Comel berbandingku) ade berpesan kpd ku untuk dtg menjenguk die di Intec sblum aku pulang ke Perak..yerla..sbb smpi je KLIA aku balik KL dulu rumah kakak..so kakakku planned kami akan ke Shah Alam untuk jumpe Cenad a day b4 aku balik Perak..yey..pegi melawat budak gumuk (haha..jgn mare Cenad)..ala kami dah biaser panggil each other Gemok. i called my sis, her baby and Cenad as Gemok since derang mmg G***k. hakhak..=p..tapi takper..itu lawak2 mesra keluarga..anda diluar sane dinasihatkan agar tidak meniru aksi ini di rumah..

Akibat Tidur Petang

petang ini aku tidur. seronok rupenyer tidur petang. patutla ade orang tidur petang.
naper aku tidur petang?sbb smlm aku tidur 4 jam jer. yerla..tidur lambat..dlm 4pg cmtuh..tapi bgn kol 8pg..
bgn2 tidur petang aku dikejutkan dgn pelbagai panggilan. Ym, call, Sms. terasa sgt diperlukan dan sgt femes (haha).

sorry la korang..i just realised yang best rupenyer tidur ptg2 gini.

lepas settle kn dgn orang2 yang memerlukan aku tuh, aku kemas bilik (untuk ke berape kali dlm mnggu ni aku pn tak pasti). kemas luggage nak balik msia lagi.
aku dgr orang ckp, since harge minyak dah naik, limit berat luggage pn dah makin strict.
kawan kpd kawan aku yg dah balik msia dan naik airlines same dgn aku (Emirates) ade inform, limit die mmg 20kg. urgh.

timbang luggage tadi. ops! cukup2 20kg. tu kasut2 tak masuk lagi. toiletries pun tak kemas lagi (dijangka penambahan berat makin mendadak). hand luggage plak aku plan nak bawak beg laptop jer. . ingat nak bawak bag pack tapi mcm tak bes jer. hand luggage plak limit mmg 7 kg.

then dah kemas2 and packing2...berehat kejap and tulis blog ni. owh, kepala mmg weng2 sekarang nih. this is the price to pay. kepale pening after tidur petang. mcm sakit pn ader.
tak bes nyer feeling ni.
harap2 mlm ni tak insomnia lagi. kalau tak mesti aku akan berfikir pelbagai perkara lagi. jangan2.

aish..aku rase hati ni mcm sedih tapi tak menangis plak...semalam tak dapat tidur sbb fikir bende ni la. aku rase aku dah buat keputusan muktamad even hati ckp jgn. jgn ikut hati zakiah, ikut akal fikiran. kdg2 hati kan boleh menipu.
ergh...betol ke ek keputusan aku buat ni..tahla..aku doa la kasi petunjuk..hurmm..aku kene fikir bnde ni untuk 5-10-20 tahun akan dtg..tapi aku tak mampu fikir sejauh tu lagi..:(
honestly, aku sayang banget tapi aku tahu bnde tu takkan ke mane.

ape2 pun, maafkan aku kepada yg terlibat. sesungguhnyer aku manusia biaser yang tak sempurna. selalu buat silap. kadang2 aku tak sedar kate2 aku dah sakitkan hati orang (even aku tak pernah fikir nak buat cmtuh pun)

maaf lagi..

oh aku juger telah kecewakan someone hari ni. sorry, tak berniat nak tolak tapi aku mmg tak boleh make it. lagipun aku tahu aku freaked out. my bad..tah biler la aku akan comfortable dgn pelawaan sebegini :(

oh ya..lagi satu..i wonder why i am being repulsive..aku tak berminat untuk ape2 pun sekarang...
yang aku tahu aku nak balik msia..lagi sehari je (yey!!!)

*chiaos*

Trouble Sleeping

it's 210am and i still cant sleep. i was tossing and turning but nothing can close my eyes and lead me to any sweet dreams...
listened to my mp3. old songs played. some memories suddenly popped into mind.

without thinking of any particular person, i felt rejected these days. by some people. why i thought so?


i think i was rejected when they behaved differently these days. became more cold. i miss those warm greetings from them. sometimes i think they just disappearing from my life..slowly..bit by bit..


i felt rejected when i think that im not that important to you.

i felt rejected when i was the one to be blamed.

sometimes i really want to tell you this: "u know..it pained me to know that i have to be off from ur life as i have to"

i put myself on ur radar but no detection at all. i did not exist. i dont have that particular chip to be detected by ur radar. maybe the chip is damn expensive that i cannot afford. maybe i had the chip once but ive lost it or maybe ur radar is kinda cheap ones that cannot detect my expensive chip. maybe ur radar and my chip are not synchronised..or maybe our wavelengths are different.

(i know i blabbed much in this post.. my bad)

once again to remind u'all, this post is not telling about a particular person. only.

i cannot stay any longer. i have my own life too.